Tag: emotional survival

  • Author’s Note

    Some people leave, but their weather stays.
    This poem is not about loss—it is about endurance, memory,
    and the quiet strength it takes to remain standing
    when the storm remembers everything.


    A lone figure standing beneath storm clouds, symbolizing memory, endurance, and emotional survival.
    Some people leave, but their weather stays.

    I Am the Storm That Remembers
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Everyone comes into our lives for a reason,
    but some are only meant for a season.
    Then the weather changes,
    and they begin to drift.
    It may not hit like an immediate shift,
    it may slowly unfold and fade.

    Yet even as they go,
    their footprints linger,
    like sunlight caught in the corner of a room,
    warm but unreachable.

    For me, memories swirl
    like storm clouds roiling overhead,
    thunder rolling through my chest,
    lightning flashing their faces,
    voices cutting through the wind—
    too sharp to ignore, too loud to forget.

    I try to run.
    I try to close the windows,
    pull the shutters tight.
    But the storm is patient.
    It seeps through cracks,
    slips under doors,
    lingers in the spaces I thought I’d cleared.

    Rain falls in shards,
    drenches my quiet moments,
    washes over laughter I can’t recover,
    drowns the footprints of the ones who left.
    And yet, in the chaos,
    there is a strange kind of clarity:
    the storm remembers,
    and so do I.

    I wish I could let it go,
    to be like them—
    so quick to forget,
    so light in the sun.
    But I am not.
    I am the storm’s echo,
    the residue of seasons past,
    and somehow, I carry their weight
    and my own,
    and I am still here,
    breathing,
    walking,
    storm-beaten but alive.


    If you’re looking for more poetry, you can find it here: [The Library of Ashes]

  • “The Hollow Sea” is a raw, haunting poem by Rowan Evans that explores the inner landscape of depression, emotional numbness, and suicidal ideation. Written in their signature style of Neo-Gothic Confessional Romanticism, this piece gives voice to the quiet desperation and fragile hope that exist in the same breath. Content warning is provided below. Please read with care—and remember, you are not alone.


    ⚠️ Content Warning:
    This poem explores themes of depression, suicidal ideation, and emotional numbness. Please read with care, and know you are not alone. If you’re struggling, there is help, and there is hope.


    “The Hollow Sea”
    (a poem about surviving when nothing makes sense)

    Here we go—

    I feel like I’m floating,
    Drifting in the hollow sea,
    Sunburnt bones in boiling brine,
    Salt-cracked lips that cease to plea.
    This life is not a gift—it gnaws.
    I’m blistered down to silent flaws.

    I feel like—

    Letting the razor kiss my skin,
    A silver tongue that aches to speak,
    To write in crimson cursive script
    The truths I’m far too shamed to shriek.
    I kiss the barrel—metal bride—
    Salt-streaked face I cannot hide.

    I’m too meek, too weak, too gone,
    A phantom cloaked in half-past dawn.
    I haven’t left my shadowed room—
    Two weeks entombed inside this gloom.

    ‘Cause I—

    Am drifting, lost in zero g’s,
    A marionette with severed strings.
    My feet forget the taste of earth,
    My heart forgets most everything.

    Noose-necked, swinging on a prayer,
    A bruised bouquet of breathless air.
    I’m hoping pain will be the end—
    The final hand, the final bend—
    Yet even as I beg release,
    My lungs betray me, gasping peace.

    My ribs are cathedrals filled with rot,
    My mind—a shrine that time forgot.
    Devotion stitched in broken glass,
    A requiem of what won’t pass.

    And yet—

    Though every star feels sharp and cruel,
    One blink of dawn might make me whole.


    💬 If you or someone you know is struggling, please reach out:

    🇺🇸 United States

    988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline – Call or text 988
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    Free, 24/7 support for emotional distress and mental health crises.

    Crisis Text Line – Text HOME to 741741
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    Samaritans – Call 116 123 (free, 24/7)
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    Lifeline Australia – Call 13 11 14
    https://www.lifeline.org.au

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    Talk Suicide Canada – Call 1-833-456-4566 or text 45645
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    🇵🇭 Philippines

    Hopeline Philippines
    Call: 0917 558 4673, (02) 8804 4673, or 2919 (toll-free for Globe & TM)
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    🌍 Global

    Befrienders Worldwide – Emotional support in 30+ countries
    https://www.befrienders.org

    Suicide Prevention Wiki (International Hotline Directory)
    https://suicidestop.com/call_a_hotline.html


    🖤 You Matter.

    Even when the world feels unbearably heavy — you are not alone.
    There is help. There is hope. Please stay.

    Still Here (A Poem About Suicidal Thoughts, Survival and Hope