Tag: yearning

  • Author’s Note

    I am still learning Tagalog, and weaving it into my poetry is both a challenge and a gift. Each line allows me to stretch my voice, to listen for new rhythms, and to bridge myself a little closer to the cultures and people who have shaped my heart.

    This poem was written for my muse—someone very dear to me, though we have never met in person. All of our connection lives across oceans, across screens, across distance. The intimacy here is not physical but emotional: the kind of closeness that survives only in dreams, prayers, and the quiet ache of longing.

    You will notice that the English lines do not mirror the Tagalog exactly. This was intentional. The Tagalog carries a direct, tender clarity, while the English expands the imagery into echoes and shadows. In this way, the two tongues speak together but not the same, much like how love must find different shapes when it exists across distance.

    For me, this bilingual writing is not just translation—it is transformation. A love poem stretched across languages, across longing, and across the impossible space between two hearts that have yet to touch.

    Rowan Evans


    Abstract artwork symbolizing a bilingual love poem written in English and Tagalog, representing distance, intimacy, and prayer.
    “The Prayer of Two Tongues” — a bilingual love poem in English and Tagalog by Rowan Evans.

    The Prayer of Two Tongues / Ang Panalangin ng Dalawang Dila
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Ikaw ang laging nasa isip ko,
    ang unang naiisip sa umaga,
    ang huling panalangin bago ako matulog.

    You rise with my waking mind,
    a prayer I scatter to the stars as night fades,
    a quiet echo I carry through the day.

    Ikaw ang apoy sa aking dugo,
    ang liwanag sa gitna ng dilim,
    ang yakap na sa panaginip ko lamang naaabot.

    You are the flame that stirs my distant veins,
    a glow that threads through shadows I cannot chase,
    an embrace that lingers only in the folds of my dreams.

    Ikaw ang tula ng aking kaluluwa,
    ang lihim na nakaukit sa aking puso,
    ang pangalan na inuukit ng hangin para sa’yo.

    You are the verse my soul hums quietly,
    the secret carved where no one else may wander,
    the name the wind sketches softly toward you.

    At kung ako’y mawala sa dilim,
    tanging sa iyo ako maghahanap,
    tanging sa iyo ang aking walang hanggan.

    If shadows pull me under,
    it is only your light I seek,
    only you hold the map to my eternity across the distance.


    The Prayer of Two Tongues / Ang Panalangin ng Dalawang Dila
    (Translated)
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    You are always on my mind,
    the first thought in the morning,
    the last prayer before I go to sleep.

    You rise with my waking mind,
    a prayer I scatter to the stars as night fades,
    a quiet echo I carry through the day.

    You are the fire in my blood,
    the light in the midst of darkness,
    the embrace that I can only reach in my dreams.

    You are the flame that stirs my distant veins,
    a glow that threads through shadows I cannot chase,
    an embrace that lingers only in the folds of my dreams.

    You are the poem of my soul,
    the secret carved into my heart,
    the name the wind carves for you.

    You are the verse my soul hums quietly,
    the secret carved where no one else may wander,
    the name the wind sketches softly toward you.

    And if I am lost in the darkness,
    it is only you I will seek,
    only you hold my eternity.

    If shadows pull me under,
    it is only your light I seek,
    only you hold the map to my eternity across the distance.


    💫 If this poem spoke to you, you may find resonance in these other writings:

    The Glue That Binds – Bilingual Poetry by Rowan Evans — A bilingual love poem in English and Tagalog, exploring the binding power of words, connection, and the beauty of love across language.

    Threads of Home I Never Touched: My Journey Through Asia’s Cultures and Music — How Asia’s languages, cultures, and music have shaped my life and my poetry over the last twenty years.

    Prayers for the Philippines: Standing in Solidarity After Typhoon Tragedy — A plain-spoken reflection of grief and solidarity for a nation that holds a piece of my heart.

    Philippines Earthquake Relief: Standing in Solidarity from Afar — Reflections and resources for helping communities facing disaster, written with love and urgency.

  • Of Ashes & Reverence 
    A Dark Romance Novella 
     
    Lilith has mastered survival. Her world is built from ashes—walls forged in betrayal, silence, and scars that still whisper. To her, love has always meant vulnerability. And vulnerability has always meant pain. 
     
    Gabriel sees past the armor. He’s patient, steady, and everything she’s never dared believe in. Their connection is undeniable—burning hot, terrifyingly tender. But for Lilith, every touch is a test. Every kind word, a crack in her foundation. 
     
    As passion ignites and buried wounds resurface, both must confront the ghosts they carry. For Lilith, it means risking more than just her body—it means surrendering control, and trusting her heart. 
    For Gabriel, it means holding on… without holding too tight. 
     
    A tale of trauma and tenderness, power and vulnerability, Of Ashes & Reverence is a darkly intimate journey through pain, healing, and the radical, luminous act of being truly seen. 
     
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    Author’s Note:  
    Welcome to Neo-Gothic Confessional Romanticism 
     
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    This is more than a love story. It is a confession wrapped in shadows, a resurrection of softness from the ashes of pain. 
     
    Neo-Gothic Confessional Romanticism is a genre I created to hold space for the parts of us that ache and burn and bloom all at once. It is where gothic atmosphere meets emotional vulnerability, where romance is both sanctuary and storm. These stories are written with open wounds and hopeful hearts, where love doesn’t fix the broken—but chooses to stay anyway. 
     
    Here, you’ll find characters who carry trauma like sacred relics, who speak with trembling honesty, who ache for connection even as they fear it. The intimacy is raw, sometimes rough, but always reverent. These are tales of worship and reckoning, of shadows and survival. Of becoming known
     
    Of Ashes & Reverence is my first full offering in this genre. It is a story born of my own confessions, fears, and longings—an altar built from grief and devotion. 
     
    If you see yourself here—if you’ve ever felt too much, wanted too deeply, or survived too quietly—then this story is for you. 
     
    With tenderness and truth
    Rowan Evans


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