Poetry by Rowan Evans

Author’s Note

There are things that feel simple in your head… until you try to say them out loud.

This piece comes from that moment right before a confession—when the words are clear, the meaning is obvious, but the weight behind them makes it harder to speak.

Sometimes it’s not about not knowing what to say.

It’s about knowing exactly what it means if you do.

And not being sure you’re ready for what comes after.

— Rowan Evans

What I Want to Say
Poetry by Rowan Evans

I have so much
that I want to say,
but I don’t know how.

For some reason—
I always chicken out.

I want to say
1-4-3—decoded.
But that’s too
loaded.

So I say it in
actions instead,
but the words stay hidden—
locked in my head.

I rehearse the lines
a thousand times,
but when the moment comes,
I swallow them whole—

afraid that saying them
might change everything
I’m scared to lose.

But the fear pulls me away—
I’m scared of becoming
just another disappointment,
another regret.

[Not Her—The Echoes]
A poem about learning the difference between someone who is safe—and the echoes of those who weren’t.

[The Quiet Inside the Noise]
What happens when a restless mind finally quiets—not by silence, but by focusing on one person? The Quiet Inside the Noise explores love, fixation, and finding calm in connection.

[Right Behind My Eyes]
A raw and introspective poem exploring dissociation, emotional distance, and the grounding power of love. Right Behind My Eyes captures the feeling of watching your life from afar–and what keeps you from disappearing completely.

If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]