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Poetry by Rowan Evans

Tag: Gothic Aesthetic

  • Hymn & Heresy: A Dark Erotic Confessional Poem by HxNightshade

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    This poem is a raw offering from the abyss where lust and devotion writhe as one—where every gasp is a prayer and every sin a sacred rite. Hymn & Heresy seduces the edges of sacred and profane, inviting you to worship the fierce hunger that both destroys and redeems. Here, scars are consecrated, shadows embraced, and desire is a sacrament drenched in fire and blood.

    Gothic altar with bleeding rose, cracked rosary, and candlelight evoking sacred and forbidden desire.
    The sacred and profane entwined — an altar of desire and devotion, inspired by “Hymn & Heresy” by HxNightshade.

    Invocation

    By the fevered pulse beneath trembling skin,
    by the slow drip of sin’s venom in my veins,
    we summon the wild—untamed, unrepentant—
    those who drink shadows like sacred wine,
    whose breath is a prayer caught between moans,
    who carve their hunger deep into the bone,
    and bleed devotion like blood from a sharpened kiss.

    Hymn & Heresy: I Am Sin, I Am Yours
    Poetry by HxNightshade

    Forgive me, Mother—
    I have tasted ruin on my tongue,
    let shadows crawl like serpents
    between my thighs,
    and crowned the bruises
    that bleed holy ink
    upon my skin—
    relics of a sacred desecration.

    At altars draped in velvet ash,
    I whispered hymns with lips stained by longing,
    offering thorn-petaled confessions,
    bleeding reverence into her midnight chalice—
    until desire burned like oil on flame,
    salt, surrender, and fire mingled in the dark.

    I carved her sigil
    beneath my ribs,
    where darkness coils and claws in silence—
    a feral softness sharpened to pierce saints,
    to make the moon tremble
    as I drank absolution
    straight from the wound.

    Forgive me, Mother—
    not for yielding
    to hunger,
    but for parting
    my lips to worship it;
    for moaning her name
    against the mouth of night,
    for loving what claws, scars,
    burns, bruises, and consumes.

    I made prayer
    from every gasp,
    sang litany
    through bitten lips,
    found grace
    in salt-sweet sweat,
    benediction
    in ache’s quiet bloom.

    In her name,
    I wear ruin like a rosary,
    make relics of my scars,
    and bless my own trembling pulse—
    unrepentant, unholy,
    feral, and utterly hers.

    Forgive me, Mother—
    not for the shadows I cradle,
    but for loving them too fiercely;
    for becoming both hymn and heresy,
    both prayer and blasphemy,
    and for never, ever wanting absolution.

    Benediction

    May your scars sear like holy brandings,
    your hunger blaze—a fierce, relentless fire.
    Blessed be the forsaken and the fervent—
    those who worship with lips bruised and trembling,
    who rage with mouths parted in whispered blasphemy,
    for in their wild, consuming flame,
    they find salvation only in surrender’s sweet ache,
    and rise—both sinners and saints—
    in the sacred ruin of their own desire.

    Read Next (Suggestions)

    [Litany & Tongue: A Devotional Duet] — Rowan Evans
    [Hex & Flame: Mirror of Shadows] — Rowan Evans
    [Body Like a Love Letter] — Rowan Evans
    [War for Your Smile] — Rowan Evans
    [Claim Me] — B.D. Nightshade

    Or explore the full archive in [The Library of Ashes]—and if your own confession aches to be written, [commission a custom poem here].

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  • The Girl of My Nightmares | Dark Neo-Gothic Confessional Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    She is not a nightmare in the terror sense—
    she is the ache beneath the ache,
    the beauty in breaking,
    the truth that shreds the soft mask we wear.

    This poem is a reckoning.
    An offering to the fierce shadow lovers inside us—
    those who show us what it means to bleed light and darkness
    all at once.

    If you find her waiting in your own shadows,
    do not run.
    Bend toward the fire.
    Let her break you open.

    A gothic woman cloaked in shadows stands at a stormy twilight horizon, surrounded by flickering candlelight and swirling smoke.
    “A flame in the dark, a shadow that sings—she is the girl of my nightmares, the beautiful ache I cannot escape.”

    ✵ Invocation ✵

    I summon the girl of my nightmares—
    not to haunt, but to unravel me,
    to burn the lies I hide behind,
    to scorch the edges of my fragile skin.
    She is the dark hymn I pray in silence,
    the wildfire that doesn’t ask for mercy,
    only to be seen—
    naked, unraveled, unrepentant.

    The Girl of My Nightmares
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    She walks into my dreams
    like dusk spilling over a wounded horizon—
    soft at the edges,
    but carrying the scent of rain
    that only comes before a storm.

    She is the girl of my nightmares—
    the fire I cannot put out,
    the shadow I bleed into.

    Her voice is velvet cut on glass,
    slow as a secret
    you ache to hear again,
    even if it ruins you.
    Each syllable slips into my bloodstream,
    a lullaby dressed as a blade.

    She is the girl of my nightmares—
    the fire I cannot put out,
    the shadow I bleed into.

    She is not the kind of beautiful
    you hold in daylight—
    she is candlelight swaying in a room
    where the shadows know your name.
    And when her gaze finds me,
    the ghosts in my bones
    go quiet.

    She is the girl of my nightmares—
    the fire I cannot put out,
    the shadow I bleed into.

    She does not reach for me in kindness—
    she reaches in truth,
    fingers brushing the cracks I hide,
    not to fix them,
    but to make them holy.
    She calls me out like lightning calls the tree,
    splitting me open,
    then holding the wound
    in the privacy of her hands.

    She is the girl of my nightmares—
    the fire I cannot put out,
    the shadow I bleed into.

    When I wake,
    she lingers—
    storm-light in my veins,
    her absence pressing against my skin
    like the shape of a bruise.
    I move through the day
    with the taste of her name
    still heavy on my tongue,
    half-prayer, half-curse.

    She is the girl of my nightmares—
    the fire I cannot put out,
    the shadow I bleed into.

    She is not a dream I escape from.
    She is the cathedral in my sleep,
    where I kneel
    in the dark
    and beg
    for the mercy of never being saved.

    ✵ Benediction ✵

    May the girl of your nightmares burn slow—
    a velvet wound you trace with trembling hands,
    a wild flame that sears and sings your name.
    And when she fades, may you carry her fire—
    not as pain, but as the raw, raw proof
    that you lived—
    that you burned—
    that you were never afraid to be undone.

    Read Next (Suggestions)

    [Luminescence & Shadow: A Forbidden Litany]
    [The Bite & Eternal Thirst]
    [Hex & Flame: Mirror of Shadows]
    [Even Still, You Are (My Muse)]
    [13 Psalms of Falling]

    Or explore the full archive in [The Library of Ashes]—and if your own confession aches to be written, [commission a custom poem here].

    NGCR25 at checkout to get 25% off your ‘request’…