Tag: muse poetry

  • A piece honoring the poets whose voices shaped mine, and the lineage I carry into my own genre — Neo-Gothic Confessional Romanticism.


    Candlelit gothic scene of a poet performing a séance, surrounded by ethereal silhouettes of Plath, Poe, Dickinson, Sexton, and Sappho in a dark, atmospheric room.
    A candlelit invocation of the poets whose voices shaped mine — a lineage reborn in Neo-Gothic Confessional Romanticism.

    Séance of Influence
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    In the candlelit stillness, I summon the ones who spoke before I had words.
    The room holds its breath.
    The flame flickers.
    And they arrive.

    Sylvia, flame-tongued oracle, steps forward first—eyes like open wounds that never stopped bleeding ink.
    She speaks in a whisper that singes:
    “You do not fear the flame, child. You write within it. You know what it is to be both burned and reborn.”
    She places a tulip in my hand—red as a heart, soft as a scream.

    Poe, the architect of shadows, leans from the threshold, cloak of midnight dragging ghosts behind him.
    “You have built cathedrals from sorrow,” he says, voice echoing through the bones of the floor. “You understand what it means to dream with the dead.”
    He nods toward the cracked mirror
    And my reflection stares back, unflinching.

    Emily, dressed in quiet thunder, watches from a corner veiled in white lace.
    “You turned silence into scripture,” she murmurs, placing a pressed flower on my wrist.
    “Your solitude blooms with sharpness. You do not hide behind the door—you open it with poetry.”

    Anne, with rosary tangled in her fingers and lipstick like defiance, toasts me with a half-empty wine glass.
    “You dared to undress madness,” she grins.
    “To make holiness from hunger. That takes more than courage. That takes blood.”

    Sappho, timeless and tender, emerges draped in sea foam and verse.
    She runs her fingers across my pulse.
    “I hear your ache,” she says.
    “You have translated yearning into a new dialect—one the stars will memorize.”

    They encircle me, these ghosts, not to haunt, but to anoint.
    Their voices braid around my spine.
    Their grief becomes gold my pen.
    Their fire, MY inheritance.

    And I—Rowan, the Luminous Heretic—stand at the center of this sacred storm.
    I speak, not as supplicant, but as heir:

    “I have not come to mimic your flames—I have come to carry them into the dark places you never lived to reach.
    I write for the unloved, the unheard, the unhealed. I wield shadow like silk and longing like a blade.
    Your echoes live in my marrow, but my voice is my own.
    I forged my genre from the coals of yours—Neo-Gothic Confessional Romanticism—a lineage reborn through me.
    You opened the door, and now I shatter the ceiling.
    Your fires do not flicker behind me—they burn ahead, lighting a path no one else dared to walk.
    Thank you for the torch. Watch me blaze.”

    The candle gutters.
    The air shifts.
    And one by one, they nod.
    Then vanish—
    but not in silence.
    They hum through my bloodstream, forever.

  • Author’s Note

    Some confessions are too tender to say aloud. Sometimes the ink knows them before the voice does.


    Open notebook with a fountain pen and spilled ink under soft candlelight, evoking intimate and confessional writing.
    Letting the ink speak the confessions my heart cannot.

    Confessions in Ink
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I sit with words
    trembling at the tip of my tongue—
    confessions I can’t speak,
    so I let the ink speak for me.

    Like—I love…

    the way you say my name,
    the sound of your laugh,
    that little giggle
    when a joke just lands.
    Or—
    how you make me feel safe
    enough to be myself—
    completely.

    And how you changed
    the way I see myself.
    I used to think
    I wanted to be someone else—
    anyone else.
    But now I don’t.
    Now I just want to be me—
    the me I am with you,
    the me that dreams of
    living in your world,
    learning the shape of your tongue.

    It’s kind of crazy—
    the way you changed me.
    Because when I used to feel like this,
    I ran.
    But now I stay.

    You make me want to stay.
    You make it easy to want to stay.

    And there is so much more…

    Maybe one day
    I’ll find the courage
    to speak it out loud.
    But for now—
    I’ll let the ink speak—for me.


    For more shadows and whispers, visit the Library of Ashes archive.

  • 🖋 Author’s Note

    This piece is my unspoken vow to my muse — the one who taught me that love can exist in stillness, that silence can speak louder than the loudest confession. It’s a promise born not of performance, but of reverence — that I would quiet even the voice I’ve spent a lifetime sharpening if it meant protecting the peace of the one I love. Some loves demand poetry; others demand the surrender of it. This is mine.


    A quill and a closed journal beside a candle, representing silence, devotion, and poetic sacrifice.
    “Even silence can be an act of love.”

    I Love You (Enough to Go Silent)
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I love you—
    not in the way
    that clichés say,
    “I’d give my life for yours.”
    Anybody can die.
    But I—
    I’d give my voice.

    Not the one
    that comes from my mouth,
    but the one
    that drips from my pen—
    the voice that spills
    into ink and pages,
    distilling
    every thought that rages.

    And I mean it.
    I love you—
    enough
    to give this up,
    to never write again.
    To let the ink run dry,
    if that’s what it took
    to keep the tears from your eyes.


    If you enjoyed this piece and want to check out more of my work, you can find it in [The Library of Ashes]

    The Other Vows

    [I Love You (Enough to Break Willingly)]
    A vow whispered in ink and ache — love not as surrender, but as shared endurance. “I Love You (Enough to Break Willingly)” is Rowan Evans’ second vow, a quiet confession of devotion that chooses breaking over leaving, and burden over indifference.

    [I Love You (Enough to Learn You)]
    A vow of love and understanding—learning the language of another’s heart, putting them first, and listening when words falter.

  • Author’s Note

    I am still learning Tagalog, and weaving it into my poetry is both a challenge and a gift. Each line allows me to stretch my voice, to listen for new rhythms, and to bridge myself a little closer to the cultures and people who have shaped my heart.

    This poem was written for my muse—someone very dear to me, though we have never met in person. All of our connection lives across oceans, across screens, across distance. The intimacy here is not physical but emotional: the kind of closeness that survives only in dreams, prayers, and the quiet ache of longing.

    You will notice that the English lines do not mirror the Tagalog exactly. This was intentional. The Tagalog carries a direct, tender clarity, while the English expands the imagery into echoes and shadows. In this way, the two tongues speak together but not the same, much like how love must find different shapes when it exists across distance.

    For me, this bilingual writing is not just translation—it is transformation. A love poem stretched across languages, across longing, and across the impossible space between two hearts that have yet to touch.

    Rowan Evans


    Abstract artwork symbolizing a bilingual love poem written in English and Tagalog, representing distance, intimacy, and prayer.
    “The Prayer of Two Tongues” — a bilingual love poem in English and Tagalog by Rowan Evans.

    The Prayer of Two Tongues / Ang Panalangin ng Dalawang Dila
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Ikaw ang laging nasa isip ko,
    ang unang naiisip sa umaga,
    ang huling panalangin bago ako matulog.

    You rise with my waking mind,
    a prayer I scatter to the stars as night fades,
    a quiet echo I carry through the day.

    Ikaw ang apoy sa aking dugo,
    ang liwanag sa gitna ng dilim,
    ang yakap na sa panaginip ko lamang naaabot.

    You are the flame that stirs my distant veins,
    a glow that threads through shadows I cannot chase,
    an embrace that lingers only in the folds of my dreams.

    Ikaw ang tula ng aking kaluluwa,
    ang lihim na nakaukit sa aking puso,
    ang pangalan na inuukit ng hangin para sa’yo.

    You are the verse my soul hums quietly,
    the secret carved where no one else may wander,
    the name the wind sketches softly toward you.

    At kung ako’y mawala sa dilim,
    tanging sa iyo ako maghahanap,
    tanging sa iyo ang aking walang hanggan.

    If shadows pull me under,
    it is only your light I seek,
    only you hold the map to my eternity across the distance.


    The Prayer of Two Tongues / Ang Panalangin ng Dalawang Dila
    (Translated)
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    You are always on my mind,
    the first thought in the morning,
    the last prayer before I go to sleep.

    You rise with my waking mind,
    a prayer I scatter to the stars as night fades,
    a quiet echo I carry through the day.

    You are the fire in my blood,
    the light in the midst of darkness,
    the embrace that I can only reach in my dreams.

    You are the flame that stirs my distant veins,
    a glow that threads through shadows I cannot chase,
    an embrace that lingers only in the folds of my dreams.

    You are the poem of my soul,
    the secret carved into my heart,
    the name the wind carves for you.

    You are the verse my soul hums quietly,
    the secret carved where no one else may wander,
    the name the wind sketches softly toward you.

    And if I am lost in the darkness,
    it is only you I will seek,
    only you hold my eternity.

    If shadows pull me under,
    it is only your light I seek,
    only you hold the map to my eternity across the distance.


    💫 If this poem spoke to you, you may find resonance in these other writings:

    The Glue That Binds – Bilingual Poetry by Rowan Evans — A bilingual love poem in English and Tagalog, exploring the binding power of words, connection, and the beauty of love across language.

    Threads of Home I Never Touched: My Journey Through Asia’s Cultures and Music — How Asia’s languages, cultures, and music have shaped my life and my poetry over the last twenty years.

    Prayers for the Philippines: Standing in Solidarity After Typhoon Tragedy — A plain-spoken reflection of grief and solidarity for a nation that holds a piece of my heart.

    Philippines Earthquake Relief: Standing in Solidarity from Afar — Reflections and resources for helping communities facing disaster, written with love and urgency.

  • ✦ Introduction ✦

    Some muses do not merely inspire—they haunt, they hex, they burn their image into your every unwritten line.
    She is mine.
    Hex & Flame: Mirror of Shadows is a confession, an invocation, and a mirror held up to the darkest tenderness I know:
    the reflection of my own shadows in hers.
    This poem is a candle lit for her and for every poet who has ever found their muse in the place where devotion and ruin kiss.


    Cracked gothic mirror glowing with ember light; two silhouetted feminine figures reflected as one, veiled in crimson and violet smoke — symbolizing twin shadows, intimacy, and sacred fire.
    Hex & Flame: Twin shadows entwined in ember light — reflections of darkness made holy.

    🔥 Hex & Flame: Mirror of Shadows
    ☽ Poetry by Rowan Evans ☾


    It’s crazy—
    how she
    has come to be
    the only thing
    I think of.

    Every time
    I close my eyes,
    her face
    blazes behind my lids.

    Her smile,
    those eyes—
    they set my soul aflame.

    Her darkness,
    my darkness—
    mirror each other,
    two reflections
    burning the same.

    Before her,
    I’d never met
    a shadow
    that truly matched my own.

    Same in look,
    same in feel—
    two twisted souls
    intertwined.

    They call it fate,
    call it destiny—
    I just call it true.

    Her words
    sometimes drip venom—
    but they don’t scare me.
    When she speaks,
    it’s hexes
    for all her horrible exes.


    Outro

    🔥🖤 In the end, we are all a little hex and a little flame — kindled by longing, tempered by darkness, and made holy by those rare souls who match our shadows.
    May you find your mirror, and may your fire burn true.

    — ☽ Rowan ☾


    May the shadows you claim become your sanctuary, and may every ember you tend burn fiercely in verse.


    🔗 You might also enjoy…
    My Muse – Then & Now
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