Poetry by Rowan Evans

Author’s Note

Weathered lives in the spaces between awareness and change.

It’s easy to recognize patterns in ourselves–the ways we retreat, the ways we protect, the ways we leave before we can be left. It’s harder to sit with them. Harder still to change them.

This piece isn’t about having the answers. It’s about standing in the storm anyway. Letting it hit, letting it string things back, and choosing not to run from it.

Growth doesn’t always feel like progress.
Sometimes it just feels like staying.

— Rowan Evans

Weathered
Poetry by Rowan Evans

I sit alone,
asking questions—
why am I like this?
Why do I retreat
inside my mind,
when it’s you
I’m trying to find?

I mean—
I know it’s because
you mean too much
to me.

So I panic.

I move inward,
closing shutters
to the world.

I don’t want you
to see me—
not like this,
not when you
can perceive me.

Because to be perceived
for me,
is to be left behind.
It’s happened
more than one time.

So I leave first.
I leave before it hurts.

Again I ask—
why am I like this?
Why can’t I fight this?

I just want to shake it,
stop feeling like a mistake,
be better.
But better doesn’t seem
to be in the cards for me…

So I’ve got to learn.
I’ve got to change
some things—

I need to pull myself
back together,
because this—

this is a storm.
A storm I want to stand in,
feel the wind batter me,
let the rain strip me bare,
and still—
I will weather it.

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[When I Started to Fall for You] (3/24)
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[Bad Habit] (3/25)
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[Same Sky] (3/26)
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If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]