Tag: distance

  • This wasn’t planned as part of the current sequence.
    Some things just need to be written–and shared–when they happen.

    Author’s Note

    There are patterns we don’t always notice until we’ve lived them more than once.

    The same thoughts.
    The same timing.
    The same quiet retreat inward.

    The Mind’s Winter comes from recognizing one of those cycles in real time–watching myself disappear into my own head, knowing it’s happening, and not always knowing how to stop it.

    It’s strange, being both the one experiencing something and the one observing it. To understand the “why,” but still feel pulled into it anyway.

    This piece isn’t about solving that pattern.

    It’s about naming it.

    About acknowledging the way overwhelm can turn inward, how distance can grow even when you don’t want it to, and how sometimes the things that matter most are the very things that scare us into retreat.

    And maybe, in recognizing the cycle…

    there’s a chance to break it.

    Rowan Evans


    A lone figure stands in a quiet winter landscape, surrounded by bare trees and falling snow, symbolizing emotional withdrawal and introspection.
    Sometimes the cold isn’t outside—it’s the space we retreat into when everything becomes too much.

    The Mind’s Winter
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    February 8th, 2026—
    I got sick again.
    It happens every year
    like clockwork.
    It starts with the headache,
    caused by being overwhelmed.

    It starts slowly,
    then snowballs
    into more.

    You see, this period of time—
    it usually comes after
    what I tend to call
    the mind’s winter.

    I slip into a deep void
    of thought.

    January 8th…
    that’s the date.

    That’s when I drift inside.
    I get lost in my mind,
    and I stay there—
    one month—I’m gone.
    Lost in thought.

    One month
    leading up to my “big day,”
    the one they say
    should celebrate me.

    But I don’t see it that way.
    It’s just another day.

    And usually,
    I bounce back.
    It’s quick…

    but this?

    This feels like an attack—
    one month in my head,
    two weeks sick and then?

    I broke my glasses—
    vision—
    I lost access.

    And the longer I’m gone,
    the more I pull away,
    even as I—

    want to stay.

    You know what
    the worst part is?

    The worst part is—
    that I know why.

    I know why I do it…
    why I pull away.

    I’ve said the reason
    a hundred times,
    in nearly as many rhymes.
    It’s because you meant
    too much to me.
    I got scared and retreated
    into me.

    So here it is—
    March 21st,
    and I—

    I haven’t spoken to you
    since February 6th,
    and if I’m honest—

    I miss you.


    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • ✦ Author’s Note ✦

    There is a strange sanctity in sleep—the quiet surrender where worlds fold into each other, where hearts separated by oceans can meet in the hush of night. This piece is a liturgy for those encounters, the nightly pilgrimages to a shared dreamscape. In this realm, distance dissolves, and the pulse of longing becomes the rhythm of devotion. Let these words be a bridge between the waking world and the sanctuary of dreams.


    Shadowy figures reaching across a silver moonlit ocean – illustration for Nocturnal Crossing poem.
    Nocturnal Crossing – a neo-gothic exploration of love, longing, and dream-bound devotion by Rowan Evans.

    ✦ Invocation ✦

    Come, children of moonlight and tide,
    step softly into the hours where reality frays,
    where the air tastes of salt and shadow,
    and silver fingers of night brush your skin.
    Let the night cradle you,
    its soft hum and velvet rustle weaving paths across oceans,
    drawing us together beneath stars that shimmer like cold fire.
    Breathe with me the brine-wet air,
    feel the pull of another soul
    even when miles of water shimmer between us,
    and hear the lull of waves like whispered secrets.


    Nocturnal Crossing
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I slip past the clock, past the walls of day,
    where moonlight drips like ink over silvered bay,
    and salt tangs the air, heavy on my tongue.
    The ocean waits, a vast, cold divide,
    but nightly I sail where your shadows hide,
    and the hush hums softly like a ghostly song.

    In waking hours, the tide keeps you away,
    distance carved like a cathedral of gray.
    Yet sleep is a bridge, a haunted parade,
    where fog curls softly, damp and scented with brine,
    and darkness sways, a slow, breathing veil.

    Your voice drifts through the chambered night,
    a ghostly hymn, pale lanterns in flight.
    I reach for the echo of your trembling hands,
    tide-bound in life, yet together we stand,
    fingertips brushing the mist like feathers of shadow.

    The stars spin slow, like dancers in lace,
    tracing the curve of your dream-lit face.
    Every sigh a hymn, every blink a key,
    unlocking the hours where only you meet me,
    the night humming faintly under our tethered breaths.

    Our bodies unmade, yet memory sings,
    the hush of your breath, the tilt of your wings.
    Velvet tides pull us under, pull us near,
    currents of shadow whispering that you’re here,
    the brine of your absence sweet on my lips.

    Every night, I dive through the velvet seam,
    where shadows and saltwater merge in a dream.
    The moon is a lantern, the sky a cathedral,
    and I cross the waves to your phantom, ethereal,
    hearing the distant crackle of star-fire above.

    The stars trace your face like ink on my skin,
    every sigh a prayer, every blink a sin.
    And when I awake, the ocean roars,
    its briny scent heavy in the morning air,
    but in dreams, I hold you on moonlit shores.

    I wait for the night with fevered eyes,
    for the hush of your laughter, the drift of skies,
    the faint taste of salt and shadow on my tongue.
    Though oceans are cruel and daylight steals,
    in dreams, I am yours, and the dark reveals.


    ✦ Benediction ✦

    May your dreams carry you gently across the seas,
    where longing dissolves into the hush of night,
    and the cool press of moonlight guides your steps.
    May the scent of salt and the brush of shadow
    lead you to the soul you seek,
    and when the sun awakens the world,
    may you rest in the quiet warmth of remembered touch,
    the hush of tides still echoing in your chest,
    knowing that in the sacred hours
    you are never truly apart,
    and the pulse of devotion lingers on your skin.


    Journey into the Hexverse

    If the hush of night lingers with you, if the pulse of devotion and quiet longing still hums in your chest, wander further into these chambers of ink and flame:

    To Be Near Your Flame | Rowan Evans
    A haunting meditation on love, longing, and the quiet courage of staying close to the one who sets your heart ablaze. Includes a benediction for connection and devotion.

    Penguin Pebbling | Roo the Poet
    A delicate, heartwarming poem celebrating the small treasures of love and the quiet moments that linger in our hearts.

    Litany of Shelter | Rowan Evans
    A quiet vow in four lines: I may not stop the rain, but I can be your shelter.

    13 Riddles for the Starborn Child | Roo the Poet
    These 13 moonlit riddles are not meant to be solved, but to gently unravel you. Roo the Poet—the child of my mythos—wanders barefoot through dreams, gathering starlight and scattering questions like wildflower seeds.

    Step lightly. Let the words fold around you. Let them hold you as the night holds us all.