Author’s Note
I’ve written a lot of poems about dreams.
At this point, it’s probably one of the most consistent threads running through my work.
The reason is simple:
Dreams don’t feel imaginary to me.
They feel remembered.
Not while I’m fully awake. Not after I’ve had time to process them. But in those first moments between sleeping and waking, there’s often a strange overlap where the emotions arrive before reality does.
For a brief moment, everything feels true.
The conversation happened. The place existed. The person was there.
Then awareness returns.
The room comes back. The walls come back. The weight of the body comes back.
And with it comes the realization that none of it happened.
That’s the feeling this poem is trying to capture.
Not the dream itself, but the return from it.
The title became the key.
Because waking up doesn’t feel like opening my eyes.
It feels like returning to my bones.
Returning to gravity. Returning to limitation. Returning to the version of reality that can be touched and verified.
The strange thing is that the emotions don’t disappear when the dream does.
The dream fades.
The feelings stay.
And sometimes that lingering feeling creates a kind of grief that is difficult to explain to people who don’t experience dreams this way.
A quiet grief.
Not because something real was lost.
But because, for a moment, it felt real enough to matter.
— Rowan Evans
Returning to My Bones
Poetry by Rowan Evans
The moon shimmers over the bay,
suspended in the sky—
the way I feel suspended in her eyes.
And it makes me feel crazy,
because she’s never looked at me—
not really, not in reality.
It’s only happened in dreams.
That’s when I drift
between awake—
and asleep.
This is when
my mind
starts to
wander.
Then it snaps.
I’m back in my room again.
The moon loses its shimmer,
the bay fades from view.
My body tenses as I become
aware again,
of the mattress beneath me—
of the walls that enclose me.
I feel the weight pressing in.
The reality of returning
to my bones.
It’s a quiet grief—
realizing that the emotions
will linger,
but the truth is
it never happened.
And somehow,
that hurts the most.
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[Just Before Waking]
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If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]
Poetry by Rowan Evans 