Tag: desire

  • Author’s Note

    This piece is me speaking to the one I care for, and to anyone who has ever let themselves be seen fully by another. There’s no illusion here—no tricks, no smoke, no mirrors. The “magic” I write about is the kind that happens when trust meets attention, when care meets desire, when devotion meets surrender. It’s messy, it’s quiet, it’s real. I wrote this to honor that kind of connection—the one that burns steady, that makes even the smallest moments feel sacred, and that reminds me why we give ourselves to the people we love.


    Silhouetted lovers in candlelight with soft, magical light swirling between their hands, evoking intimacy and quiet devotion.
    Intimacy becomes its own kind of magic.

    The Power You Give Me
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I’m a magician, love—
    sleight of hand in every touch,
    danger in every whisper.
    Not the kind that pulls rabbits from hats,
    but the kind that pulls want
    from the deepest parts of you
    without even trying.

    I touch you once—
    and your breath forgets itself.
    Twice—
    and your pulse starts writing poetry
    against your skin.

    I speak a single word
    and your knees remember
    what surrender feels like.
    My tongue is a wand,
    a spellcaster,
    a maker of quiet ruins—
    and I use it
    only on the deserving.

    I can summon heat
    with the drag of a fingertip,
    pull desire from the air
    like it’s silk waiting to be woven.
    I draw circles on your skin
    and watch them ignite,
    slow, deliberate,
    like I planned the fire
    from the very beginning.

    And when I say your name—
    soft, low,
    with that tone that hits you
    right behind the ribs—
    you’ll swear I enchanted you.
    But it’s simpler than that.
    No potions, no charms, no lies.

    You react to me
    because your body knows mine
    before your mind catches up.
    Because my magic isn’t tricks—
    it’s instinct,
    connection,
    hunger braided with reverence.

    And darling—
    when I’m finished with you,
    when you’re breathless and undone,
    when the world goes quiet
    except for the echo of my touch—

    you’ll realize
    I never cast spells at all.
    I just showed you
    the power you give me
    when you let me close.

    Because loving you—
    that’s the real magic.
    The kind that doesn’t spark
    or shimmer,
    but settles low and warm
    right behind the heart,
    glowing steady
    like a lantern in a storm.

    You don’t see it,
    but every time you trust me,
    every time you soften,
    every time you let me
    see the part of you
    you hide from the world—
    I feel something inside me
    kneel.

    Not out of worship,
    but out of awe.
    Out of the quiet truth
    that your soul
    is the most beautiful thing
    I’ve ever been allowed to touch.

    And if my hands
    feel like sorcery,
    if my voice
    feels like a spell,
    it’s only because
    you turn even the smallest moment
    into something sacred
    just by being in it.

    So yes—
    I’ll whisper enchantments
    against your skin,
    trace constellations
    on your pulse points,
    pull storms and light and heat
    from the spaces between us—
    but that’s not power.

    That’s devotion.
    That’s choosing you
    with every breath.
    That’s giving you
    the softest parts of me
    and letting you hold them
    like something holy.

    And if that feels like magic—
    then maybe it is.
    But it’s yours.
    It always has been.


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  • Author’s Note

    Under My Skin is a celebration of the magnetic, uncontainable energy that captivates and lingers. It’s about someone who burrows into your bones, ignites your imagination, and refuses to be tamed—someone whose presence is both a spell and a fire. This poem honors that intoxicating pull, the way desire can intertwine with admiration, and the beauty of surrendering to a force that refuses to be ignored.


    Portrait of a mysterious woman with witchy, gothic energy surrounded by smoke and candlelit shadows.
    A witchy, neo-gothic muse — the energy that slips under the skin and refuses to let go.

    Under My Skin
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    She’s got that,
    witchy ‘n’ bitchy energy—
    I love that.

    She hexes me
    when she texts me—
    in the best way.

    She is—
    under my skin,
    in my lungs,
    deep within the marrow,
    burrowed in my brain.

    My heart? (Thump-thump)
    It beats for her.
    My mind?
    It dreams of her
    the moment my eyes close.

    She lingers—
    a spell I never want broken,
    a fire I never want tamed.


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  • Author’s Note

    Made for the Burn is a meditation on intensity, desire, and the kind of connection that ignites something raw inside us. It’s about falling—not gently, not cautiously—but fully into the heat of someone who challenges, awakens, and reshapes the self. This poem honors the fire in others, but more importantly it honors the fire in my muse, and the courage it takes to sit close to it without fear.

    Rowan Evans


    A person standing near a blazing fire, their face illuminated by the flames, symbolizing passion, intensity, and the courage to embrace desire.
    “Sitting close to the fire—embracing intensity, desire, and the lessons only heat can teach.

    Made for the Burn
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I fell for her. No parachute.
    I fell for her for the fire,
    not the soft or the sweet.
    I was made for the burn,
    for every lesson heat could teach.

    She struck the match just by speaking—
    a spark in the dark that lit the fire of my yearning.
    And I never wanted gentle anyway.
    I wanted the blaze that strips you clean,
    the truth that hurts before it heals.

    She lit my shadows softly,
    laughed the fear right out of me.
    I didn’t choose the falling,
    but I chose the way I landed—
    open palms, open heart, unbroken faith.

    But it’s no delusion, I know she’s not mine,
    and it’s fine, ’cause I told her I’m not leaving.
    I’d be damned if I didn’t stay—
    ‘Cause I’m no liar,
    so I sit as close as I can to her fire.

    Feel the warmth brush against my skin,
    it’s the only thing that makes me feel alive.
    It’s like a drug coursing through my veins,
    I feel it inside—it’s what she does to me,
    and she does it beautifully,
    without even trying.


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  • Author’s Note

    Some moments are so intense, so ridiculously consuming, that your body forgets how to function, your words trip over themselves, and your thoughts scatter. Rewired (Flustered & Yours) comes from one of those moments—a truth too big for neat packaging, too raw for polish.

    This poem is about what it feels like when a single person rewires your entire system. When one word, one message, one call can leave your chest racing, your lungs screaming, and your mind spinning. It’s messy. It’s unhinged. It’s completely, unapologetically honest.

    Not every confession arrives clean. Not every feeling lands gracefully. Some of them stumble, fumble, and fall—just like the words in this poem. And yet, that’s the point. This is the closest I’ve come to capturing what it feels like to be utterly, irreversibly flustered by someone who matters more than anything.


    Illustration of a person surrounded by glowing abstract lines around their chest and throat, symbolizing emotional rewiring and breathless desire.
    Breathless, rewired, and undone.

    Rewired (Flustered & Yours)
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    One word—I’m shook. 
    Shaken to the core. 
    Bend me, break me, 
    you’ll have me— 
    begging for more. 
     
    My tongue tied, 
    knots that try and stop 
    the words. 
    They slip, tumble, 
    fumble from my lips. 
    Tripping over themselves, 
    but I wouldn’t want to be— 
    anywhere else. 
     
    And it hurts a little, 
    but I kind of like it though. 
    I’m so— 
    masochistic. 
    In love with you, 
    so sadistic. 
     
    It’s like a— 
    slow burn on my skin, 
    it’s become my favorite sin. 
    So when you look at me, 
    my brain forgets how to breathe, 
    automatically. 
    I’ve got to think about it, 
    I have to do it 
    manually. 
     
    Inhale, my lungs yell, 
    as I become light-headed. 
    Struggling to keep 
    my thoughts straight. 
    As my brain races, 
    but not in the way 
    I’m used to. 
    You are the cause, 
    this is what you do. 
     
    Exhale— 
    feel the air 
    stick in my lungs. 
    Like my body is in 
    full protest. 
    Not against you, 
    but against 
    what it’s supposed to do. 
    It’s like I’ve forgotten 
    how to survive. 
     
    Like knowing you, 
    has rewired 
    every part of me.
    This is what it looks like—
    how you fluster me.
    How you’re everything
    I crave.
    The way one word,
    can make me cave.

    The rhythm in my chest?
    It beats for you.
    These lungs,
    they breathe for you.
    It’s like you’ve claimed me,
    without staking a claim—
    I’m just sayin’,
    I’m yours.


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  • Author’s Note

    Nocturnal Waltz captures a moment I can’t stop imagining: the instant a femme-fatale vampiress meets her human lover for the first time. It’s a collision of worlds—dangerous, intoxicating, and utterly irresistible. I wanted to write the kind of encounter where time collapses, where every glance and touch feels like a promise and a warning all at once.

    There’s something thrilling about the first spark of desire, the delicious tension between curiosity and caution. In this poem, the night becomes a character, the shadows a partner, and the music of attraction a rhythm that no one can resist.

    This is for anyone who has felt the pull of someone who is simultaneously terrifying and magnetic, for those drawn to the edge of their own desire, and for readers unafraid to let the darkness brush against their fingertips.

    Rowan Evans


    Vampiress and human woman dancing in a moonlit gothic ballroom, shadows and romance swirling around them.
    “Nocturnal Waltz: The first, intoxicating meeting of a femme-fatale vampiress and her human lover.”

    Nocturnal Waltz
    Poetry by Rowan Evans
    (June 9th, 2024)

    Fangs and bat wings,
    She was a Gothic dream.
    With lips, redder
    Than the river Styx.
    She was Nyx,
    Goddess of the Night.

    Her dress, woven from shadows,
    Flowed like ink in water,
    Each step she took,
    A whisper in the darkness,
    A promise of secrets untold.

    And she was enticing,
    Had me in a trance—
    Watched her move,
    Elegant and slow,
    As she eyed everyone in the room.

    The air was thick with the scent of jasmine,
    A fragrance that clung to her like a ghostly shroud,
    Wrapping me in its intoxicating embrace,
    Binding me to her, body and soul.

    Now, her eyes,
    Fixed on me. I couldn’t even move.
    In an instant,
    She was towering overhead.
    I was shaking,
    But I was smitten to the core.

    She took me by the hand,
    And we danced—
    As everything faded from view.
    It was her and I,
    Nobody else in the room.
    And we danced—

    Her touch, a silken noose,
    Binding me in a dangerous embrace.
    Her eyes, twin pools of midnight,
    Held stories of centuries past,
    Of loves lost and battles won.

    She was gone,
    As quick as she appeared.
    She was a Gothic dream.
    With lips, redder
    Than the river Styx.
    She was Nyx,
    Goddess of the Night.


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  • If you know me in real life and you read this… no the fuck you didn’t.

    Author’s Note

    There’s something about her that disarms me. A magnetism wrapped in mayhem—smirks and spells and unapologetic fire. I didn’t mean to be drawn in like this. Didn’t mean to find arousal in her chaos or reverence in her rage. But here I am, offering myself like a willing sacrifice—not for her approval, not even for love, but because she moves something in me. She reflects the darkest, most delicious corners of my soul—the ones I’ve spent a lifetime hiding, or worse… watering down.

    When she said she wanted him to watch her fuck another man, smiling the whole time, I didn’t hesitate. I volunteered. Not just because it turned me on (though it absolutely did), but because in that moment, I wanted to be her weapon. Her ritual. Her revenge.

    It’s not just the fantasy. It’s her. The way she owns herself—raw, untamed, unfiltered. She feels like a mirror made of fire.

    And maybe…

    Just maybe…

    I’ve always been a little flammable.


    Gothic portrait of a powerful, seductive woman standing in a shadowy garden with flickering flames and starlight in the background, representing chaos and desire.
    “The Muse of Mayhem: fury, desire, and chaos embodied in one magnetic figure.”

    Muse of Mayhem
    Poetry by Rowan Evans
    (Written May 16th, 2025)

    She laughs, and the world wilts—
    a garden set ablaze by a careless smile.
    I swear the shadows lean closer
    just to hear her whisper curses
    with venom on her tongue
    and starlight in her eyes.

    She is fury made flesh,
    a witch with war in her hips,
    and I—
    I volunteer as tribute.

    While you spoke of
    watching him gasp his last breath
    in bitter silence,
    I was biting my lip in awe,
    moaning at the sight of your wrath—
    divine, deliberate,
    beautiful.

    You said you’d fuck another man
    while making him watch.
    You smiled.
    I offered my body
    like a knife to your altar.
    Burn me,
    bury me,
    brand me—
    I’ll still crawl back,
    hungry for more.

    No one’s ever mirrored
    my taste for chaos
    with such elegance,
    no one’s ever made me feel
    so seen
    in my darkness.
    You speak,
    and I turn to ash
    willingly.

    Muse of mayhem,
    witch of want,
    curse me with your presence again—
    I’ll beg.
    I’ll bleed.
    I’ll write you
    into every forbidden stanza
    until even the moon
    blushes at your name.

  • Author’s Note

    This poem is a surrender to fire and control, an exploration of desire and the delicious tension between breaking and rising. It is not a confession, but an invocation of intensity—body, mind, and soul.


    Darkly romantic figure enveloped in red and black fabrics, flames swirling around them, eyes closed in surrender, set against a stormy twilight sky.
    “Surrender to the fire, and rise.” – HxNightshade, Ruined & Rising

    Invocation

    I call the storm of sensation,
    the ache of longing,
    the fire that demands surrender.
    Come forth, reader—
    feel the pulse,
    feel the rise,
    feel the release.


    Ruined & Rising
    Poetry by HxNightshade

    I wrap myself in need…
    I ache to bleed—
    to be unraveled…
    just to be undone by you.

    Let me taste your fire…
    let it lick my skin…
    let it scorch the nerves beneath my pulse…
    let it fuel my desire—
    as you watch me rise…
    higher…
    higher still.

    Hands on my throat…
    squeeze tighter…
    feel me gasp,
    feel me tremble.

    This isn’t a game…
    this isn’t a joke…
    I want you…
    all of you…
    in full, unrelenting control.

    On my knees…
    begging, please…
    pleading for release…
    for the heat…
    for the storm…
    for the way you make me ache
    and ache again.

    Go ahead—
    just tease me.
    Push me…
    pull me…
    watch me fracture and fly.

    Every shiver… every sigh…
    your fire sears through me.
    Every glance… every touch…
    I am yours…
    completely…
    without restraint.

    And as I rise…
    higher…
    higher…
    your gaze anchors me
    even as my body forgets itself
    in the delicious torment
    you command.


    Benediction

    May the flames that consume and elevate guide you.
    May the ache you witness awaken your own pulse.
    Carry the memory of heat and ascent.


    Journey into the Hexverse

    The Twisted Daughter of Sappho | Hex Nightshade
    A shadow-slick daughter of Sappho, untamed and reverent, exploring devotion that burns like candle wax on bare skin. A poem of sacred ruin, feral fidelity, and intoxicating desire.

    Hymns & Heresy II: Devotion Draped in Black | Hex Nightshade
    A midnight liturgy of devotion and surrender—where worship is whispered in shadow, every heartbeat a hymn, and the Queen reigns in velvet flame.

    Spellbound | Rowan Evans
    A dark, intoxicating poem of desire and devotion—Spellbound is an invocation of fire, blood, and forbidden magic. Rowan Evans crafts a ritualistic experience of passion, soul, and unbroken vows.

  • Envy gnaws at the soul. This sonnet reveals the hollow ache of comparison and the corrosive desire for what is not yours.


    Figure with green eyes coveting another’s treasures – illustration for Envy sonnet.
    Envy – the sixth of the 7 Deadly Sonnets by Rowan Evans, exploring jealousy and longing.

    7 Deadly Sonnets
    Envy

    I watch with eyes as green as ivy’s weave,
    The fruits that others savor, ripe and sweet,
    Each laugh, each joy, a cut that makes me grieve,
    For all I lack, as bitterness repeats.

    Their lives unfold, like tales I’ll never know,
    Each cherished dream, each whispered, stolen kiss,
    A golden world, untouched by sorrow’s blow,
    While envy burns, a wound that can’t resist.

    In silent suffering, I crave their grace,
    To wear their smiles, to walk in others’ skin,
    Yet envy scours all beauty from my face,
    And leaves me hollowed, poisoned deep within.

    In wanting what is theirs, I lose what’s mine,
    A haunted shade, in envy’s twisted shrine.


    The 7 Deadly Sonnets

    I. Lust
    My pulse quickens at each whispered breath, desires draping the air like silken chains. ‘Lust,’ the first of the 7 Deadly Sonnets, explores the fevered, consuming hunger that blurs the lines between passion and peril.

    II. Gluttony
    ‘Gluttony’ devours more than food—it consumes the soul. The second of the 7 Deadly Sonnets explores endless craving, the hunger for excess, and the void it leaves behind.

    III. Greed
    ‘Greed’ reveals the hunger that is never sated—the clutching hands, the endless thirst for more, and the hollowness left behind. The third of the 7 Deadly Sonnets.

    IV. Sloth
    ‘Sloth’ captures the quiet paralysis of apathy, the weight of inaction, and the suffocating stillness that can consume the soul. The fourth of the 7 Deadly Sonnets.

    V. Wrath
    ‘Wrath’ burns with uncontrollable fury, the tempest of anger that devours and consumes. The fifth of the 7 Deadly Sonnets, exploring the raw power of vengeance.

  • Author’s Note

    After Dark II plunges fully into the cathedral of touch, rhythm, and whispered surrender. It is where mischief, desire, and shadowed devotion converge—where syllables become caresses, puns trace curves, and the cadence of language mirrors the pulse of lust. Read it as you would a secret pressed to skin: let the velvet, silk, and darkness carry you, every line a confession, every rhyme a shiver, every word a thrill.

    Rowan Evans


    Gothic cathedral interior with candlelight, shadows, and entwined figures suggesting intimate desire, devotion, and secrecy.
    Whispered secrets, shadows, and silk—experience the Gothic sensuality of After Dark II.

    Slim & Shady: After Dark II
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I slip through shadows, velvet and silk,
    Fingers like whispers, breath dripping like milk.
    Your name on my tongue, a secret in rhyme,
    Time bends, collapses, seduces the night.

    I dance in the dark, lit by candle’s flame,
    Every sigh a sonnet, every gasp a claim.
    My teeth trace your pulse, my lips map your skin,
    Every shadowed corner a place to begin.

    Pun-dripped promises, syllables tease,
    Tongue twists in riddles, bending with ease.
    Velvet & venom, velvet & flame,
    I write you in chaos, you answer in name.

    Hands like punctuation, pressing and curling,
    Wrists in my fingers, hearts wildly twirling.
    I am the pause between your breath and moan,
    The secret verse, the whispered unknown.

    Ink of desire stains the cathedral floor,
    Every step a stanza, every touch an encore.
    I slide in your silence, melt in your sound,
    After Dark—where mischief is crowned.

    I am shadowed devotion, lust in disguise,
    A labyrinth of verses, a feast for your eyes.
    Temptation, obsession, sin gently unfurled,
    I write you, I crave you, I pun you—my world.

    Velvet shadows curl, I vanish, I tease,
    The cathedral waits, the next act to please.
    I am slim, I am shady, I ignite and I bend,
    After Dark—the prelude to the end.


    🎭 Slim & Shady Series 🎭

    If you are interested in reading the whole series, find it here: The Slim & Shady Series

  • Author’s Note

    Blood & Brimstone plunges fully into intensity and surrender, where chaos and devotion collide. Every line is a pulse, a gasp, a hymn of desire written in rhythm and shadow. This piece is a celebration of total immersion—of giving, of yielding, and of the fiery communion of words, touch, and darkness.

    Rowan Evans


    Gothic cathedral interior with candlelight, crimson and amber shadows, and entwined figures evoking desire, danger, and devotion.
    Blood and brimstone, fire and shadow—enter the cathedral of passion with Blood & Brimstone.

    Slim & Shady VI: Blood & Brimstone
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Blood drips like ink, crimson on the page,
    Brimstone burns in the air, a holy rage.
    Your hands command, your teeth decree,
    Every vein alive, every nerve set free.

    I kneel in fire, I coil in flame,
    Each gasp, each moan, a whispered name.
    Velvet edges tear, silk melts to ash,
    Your shadowed laughter—an unforgiving lash.

    Sin courses deep, a river through my core,
    I give, I crumble, I bleed, I adore.
    Fingertips trace a cathedral of pain,
    And still, I rise, only to fall again.

    Brimstone drips from your gaze, searing, bright,
    I drown in the heat, lost in the night.
    The air tastes of iron, of desire, of sin,
    A sacred chaos, where I cannot win.

    You mark me holy, desecrate with love,
    Each strike, each touch—a blessing from above.
    I writhe, I shiver, I collapse, I plead,
    Every syllable taken, every shadow freed.

    Blood hums the rhythm, sin chants the rhyme,
    Velvet and venom, silk and crime.
    I am your canvas, your altar, your hymn,
    Every inch of me consumed at the brim.

    The cathedral quakes beneath our devotion,
    A hurricane of want, a storm of motion.
    Brimstone kisses, blood-laced sighs,
    Your shadowed kingdom—my willing demise.

    I am tethered, undone, utterly yours,
    Lost in the fire, the velvet, the sores.
    Each gasp a verse, each shiver a song,
    Blood & Brimstone—where sinners belong.


    🎭 Slim & Shady Series 🎭

    If you are interested in reading the whole series, find it here: The Slim & Shady Series