Tag: identity and belonging

  • Author’s Note

    This piece began with an image:

    a ritual repeated so many times that the people performing it stopped questioning the structure around it.

    At first, I thought I was writing horror.

    Ancient gods. Sacred chants. A collapsing building.

    But somewhere in the middle of the piece, the emotional center shifted.

    The horror was no longer the gods returning.

    It was what they returned to.

    This poem is ultimately about separation—how humanity continuously divides itself into categories, tribes, borders, identities, ideologies, and opposing sides. Not because difference itself is wrong, but because we so often transform difference into distance.

    Into hierarchy.
    Into conflict.
    Into “us” and “them.”

    The gods in this piece are intentionally left undescribed because they are less important as individuals and more important as witnesses. They remember humanity before those divisions hardened into walls.

    Before labels stopped being descriptive and started becoming weapons.

    And importantly: this piece is not arguing against culture, identity, language, or individuality. Those differences are part of what make humanity beautiful. The tragedy is not diversity—it’s disconnection.

    The collapse in this poem is symbolic.

    Not the destruction of difference, but the destruction of the structures that keep people separated from one another.

    And beneath all the mythology, rituals, and ancient imagery, there is a quieter question lingering underneath it all:

    What would humanity look like if we learned to see each other before the labels again?

    Rowan Evans


    An ancient ritual chamber collapsing as mysterious godlike figures emerge while frightened worshippers look on.
    The horror was never the gods returning—it was the world they returned to.

    Before We Created the Labels
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Each footstep
    echoed through the dark,
    the only sound
    to pierce the veil of silence.

    One by one,
    they filed into the room—

    each taking their place,
    as though they’d done this
    a thousand times.

    As the final of the covenant
    found their mark—

    they began to chant
    in ancient tongues.
    Languages of old,
    long forgotten to the world.

    The air in the room
    began to change—

    and it wasn’t humidity’s game.

    A presence became clear,
    even with no form to see.

    Their chants continue
    in a sacred chorus,
    as they call
    ancient gods forth.

    Air shimmered
    and walls shook,
    foundation cracks—

    and the air
    grew thicker still.

    Voices grew quiet,
    the chanting fading low—

    wood creaks,
    cracks expand.

    The room filled
    with whispers,
    voices from everywhere
    and nowhere—

    all at one time.

    As the whispers
    grew in volume,
    becoming booming
    shouts.

    Buildings shook,
    foundations shifted
    and the ground
    gives out.

    Fear filled—
    eyes of the covenant.

    A ritual done
    a thousand times,
    and a thousand times
    the gods would come—

    a sacrifice would be made,
    but the rules had changed.

    The building
    begins to come down,
    as the covenant runs out.

    Now, the gods unconfined—
    can see the world
    they left behind,
    for the first time.

    It wasn’t with judgement—
    it was grief,
    because they saw the cracks
    and fractures,
    the tragic divides.

    They remember a time,
    when their creation—
    was all one.

    Before we created
    the labels to divide.

    As they looked around
    at what the world
    had become—

    a series of lines
    separating sides.


    Journey into the Hexverse…

    [The Unkindness Descends]
    “The Unkindness Descends” is a Gothic symbolic poem exploring collapse, transformation, and the unsettling experience of being witnessed during moments of unraveling. Through raven imagery, ambiguity, and ritualistic atmosphere, the poem invites multiple interpretations—spiritual, psychological, ominous, or transformative.

    [I Write Cathedrals]
    “I Write Cathedrals” explores faith, doubt, belonging, and the search for meaning beyond certainty. Through Gothic spiritual imagery and confessional reflection, the poem examines how writing can become a sacred space for questioning, wonder, and the people who feel displaced by traditional structures of belief.

    [Drought Resistant]
    “Drought Resistant” is a confessional poem about growing up poor in California’s Central Valley—where triple-digit heat, EBT cycles, dry ramen, and hard landscapes become part of emotional memory. Blending humor, slang, and working-class reflection, the poem explores survival, regional identity, and complicated love for the place that shaped you.

    [Escaped to the Page]
    “Escaped to the Page” is a confessional meta-poem about individuality, artistic identity, and surviving through writing. Blending sharp confidence with emotional vulnerability, the poem explores the difference between shared labels and lived experience—and the ways art becomes inseparable from the life behind it.

    [Ink as a Second Mouth]
    “Ink as a Second Mouth” explores the distance between thought and speech, and the ways writing can become a form of survival, continuity, and self-translation. Through confessional imagery and reflections on growth, identity, and articulation, the poem examines what it means to keep becoming through language.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • Author’s Note

    There’s a strange kind of exhaustion that comes from feeling emotionally out of sync with your surroundings.

    Not just tired physically— but displaced internally.

    Like your body exists in one place, while some deeper part of you keeps reaching toward another.
    This piece came from that feeling.

    From late nights, shifting sleep schedules, wandering thoughts, and the growing realization that sometimes longing isn’t just emotional—
    sometimes it becomes geographic.

    The Tagalog woven through this poem wasn’t added for aesthetic reasons. It felt necessary.

    Because some emotions arrive more honestly in the languages tied to the places, people, and futures living inside your mind.

    And maybe that’s what this piece really is:

    a confession from someone physically rooted in one side of the world, while their heart keeps leaning toward another.

    Rowan Evans


    Person awake at night imagining distant city streets while feeling emotionally displaced
    Body in the west. Heart in the east.

    Out of Sync
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Eyes open—
    when they should be shut.

    You’re awake
    when you don’t want
    to be up.

    It’s hard to exist
    when your day shifts.

    Spirits fall
    when nothing’s wrong
    at all.

    You’re just
    out of sync…

    Four in the evening
    is near eight A.M.

    Time is the distance
    between my feet
    and the streets
    I want to walk.

    Seryoso ako—

    I want to go.
    I want to leave
    these streets behind.

    They were never mine.

    An American zombie,
    sleepwalking
    through life.

    Because the only time
    I feel alive—

    ay kapag ako’y
    nananaginip.

    When I sleep,
    I can walk
    different streets—

    body in the west,
    puso sa silangan.


    Journey into the Hexverse!

    [They Trip on Meaning]
    A free verse poem about miscommunication, emotional exhaustion, and the burden of constantly translating yourself for others.

    [Global Takeover]
    What if home isn’t a place—but something you build from the music you love? Global Takeover blends sound, culture, and identity into one borderless space.

    [Two Americans]
    What does it mean to share a country, a language, and still feel completely different? Two Americans explores identity, culture, and the quiet disconnect between people who should feel the same—but don’t.

    [I Don’t Mean Life]
    “I don’t want to be here” doesn’t always mean what people think. This poem explores identity, misunderstanding, and the weight of not feeling at home in your own environment.

    [121° East]
    A single line of longitude becomes something more—a reflection of distance, identity, and the quiet decision to become who you were always meant to be.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]