Tag: NGCR Publishing

  • Author’s Note

    Fragile Pulse came from watching the world move on autopilot—how easily people slip into routines, expectations, and identities that aren’t truly their own. It’s a poem about alienation, yes, but also about the quiet, stubborn spark that still lives beneath all that machinery.

    This piece is my reminder that even in places that feel lifeless or mechanical, there are moments of real humanity—small flickers of authenticity that reach back when we reach out. It’s about connection in a world that often forgets how to feel, and about what it means to notice the spark in someone who thought theirs had gone out.

    A fragile pulse is still a pulse. And sometimes, that’s enough to change everything.


    Illustration of a single glowing human figure surrounded by robotic, mechanical figures moving in a cold, dystopian cityscape.
    A fragile spark in a mechanical world — the pulse that refuses to fade.

    Fragile Pulse
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Oh, you’re here?

    Do you hear that?

    Listen—
    the hum of motors,
    the whir of gears.
    You see a land of people;
    I see a land of robots—
    not thinking,
    only following programs.

    They walk past you,
    faces blank,
    eyes fixed,
    hands moving in repetition,
    hearts forgotten in the chest,
    souls traded for schedules.

    And I watch—
    not with hope,
    not with judgment,
    but with quiet fascination
    at how easily the mind bends
    when freedom is a stranger.

    Do you hear it too?
    The faint pulse beneath the circuits,
    the tiny spark of something
    that refuses to be programmed.
    It’s fragile—
    like a candle in a storm,
    but it exists.
    I can feel it,
    even if the rest cannot.

    I reach out—
    not with force,
    not with commands,
    but with a touch gentle enough
    to tremble against wires and bone.

    Some notice;
    some do not,
    but the ones who do
    flicker for a moment—
    a shadow of thought
    breaking through the rhythm
    of their programming.

    And in that flicker,
    I see the impossible:
    a memory, a desire,
    a pulse that answers mine.
    A whisper shared
    between what is alive
    and what has almost forgotten how.

    Maybe it’s nothing,
    just a flicker in the dark,
    but even a single spark
    can set a world alight.
    I hold it close—
    this fragile pulse—
    and for a heartbeat,
    the land of robots
    becomes a land of us.


    If you enjoyed this piece, check out my full archive here: [The Library of Ashes]

  • Author’s Note

    Her Story was born from frustration — not with women, but with the men who turn a woman’s past into a personal insult. This poem confronts the insecurity, entitlement, and emotional immaturity that drive so many men to treat a woman’s history like a threat instead of a testament to her strength.

    This piece isn’t about blame; it’s about perspective. A woman’s story is not a competition, not a purity test, not a battlefield for fragile egos. It is something to honor — not to resent.

    I wrote this to challenge that mindset, to hold a mirror to possessiveness disguised as devotion, and to remind anyone who needs to hear it that a woman owes no one an apology for having lived before you. She owes no one her silence. She owes no one her shame. She owes you nothing.

    Rowan Evans


    Illustration of a woman in profile with handwritten text layered inside her silhouette and a warm halo of light behind her, representing her past and resilience.
    A woman’s story is not a threat — it’s something to honor.

    Her Story
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Why do some guys
    get so hung up on the past?
    Why do you care so much,
    what happened before you?
    So what she’s lived a life before—
    oh no, someone wanted to make her their wife before.
    I’m so jealous, watch me act out, get hellish.
    Nah, I’m just playin’, just joking around—
    Because it’s not about the past for me,
    getting that hung up on her before…
    that’s blasphemy.

    So if you can, answer me this…
    why do so many guys get pissed?
    Yeah, she has experiences—
    that you can’t touch.
    They happened before you,
    why let them affect you so much?

    Why does her story
    feel like a threat
    instead of a lesson
    that she’s survived,
    lived, loved, lost—
    and still chose you
    in this moment?

    Why does her story
    make you small,
    when it should make you honored
    to be part of the chapter
    she won’t have to rewrite?

    Why do you police her scars
    as if she owes you
    purity, silence,
    a spotless record
    to soothe your ego?

    You want devotion
    but shudder at evidence
    that she lived
    before your shadow
    ever touched her skin.

    But here’s the truth:
    A woman with a past
    isn’t a warning label—
    she’s a masterpiece
    restoring herself.
    And if that scares you,
    it’s not her history
    you’re terrified of—
    it’s your own reflection.

    It’s because you don’t feel worth—
    the attention, or affection.
    You don’t feel like you
    can handle her truth.
    You can’t honor what she’s been through,
    so it weighs on you, and it weighs heavy.
    You do what you can to
    try and prove
    you’re ready.

    But you’re not.
    You’re just like every other guy,
    sitting back, asking why?
    Why not me?
    I’ve been,
    nice as can be.
    Sounding like she owes you something,
    but the truth is—
    She owes you nothing.


    If you enjoyed Her Story, you can feel free to explore The Library of Ashes

  • Across the Storm, My Heart Still Beats with the Philippines


    Calm ocean at dawn showing light after the storm.
    Hope rises again — across the storm, across the sea.

    Over the past week, my heart has carried the weight of storms.
    First, Typhoon Tino (Kalmaegi) swept through the central islands,
    and before the earth could breathe,
    Super Typhoon Uwan (Fung-wong) roared across nearly the entire country—
    winds and rains so vast, they seemed to swallow the sky.

    Even from across an ocean, I have felt it—the ache, the worry,
    the whispered prayers that travel through time zones.
    I have friends there, people I hold close to my heart,
    and through them, I have come to love not just individuals,
    but the spirit of the Filipino people:
    resilient, compassionate, endlessly giving,
    even when there is little left to give.

    As the news unfolded, I did what I could from here:
    prayed to whatever higher powers might hear me,
    lit candles, whispered the names of those I love,
    sent energy into the dark,
    and asked others to do the same.

    It is never enough, I know.
    But love—even distant love—is still a kind of offering.
    And I hope that love can reach you,
    even across oceans and storm clouds.

    If you feel moved to help, consider lending your compassion to relief efforts—
    whether through a donation, spreading awareness,
    or sending your own prayers into the night. Every act ripples outward.


    Here are organizations providing emergency relief and long-term support:

    Philippine Red Cross – Emergency aid, medical relief, and disaster response.

    GlobalGiving – Immediate supplies and funds for recovery projects.

    Caritas Manila – Coordinates aid for affected families and communities.

    Oxfam Pilipinas – Supports marginalized communities and climate resilience.

    World Vision Philippines – Offers food, shelter, and protection for children.

    Save the Children Philippines – Focused on education and child safety during disasters.

    I also encourage those outside the country to seek local, community-led donation drives and mutual aid networks within the Philippines—people helping people, neighbors helping neighbors. Their voices, their needs, must always be centered.


    A Prayer for the Islands I Love
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    May the waters still,
    and recede.
    May roofs rise again,
    and laughter return to the doorways.
    May every whispered prayer
    become a hand reaching out.

    For every island, every home,
    every heart that still trembles—
    know that you are not alone.
    Even across oceans,
    my love remains with you.

    May my friends, and the families I carry in my heart,
    find safety, courage, and hope.
    May the warmth, pride, and spirit
    of a people I have come to love so deeply
    guide them through the night.

    The sea cannot drown
    what is built on hope.
    And the light,
    the light always returns
    to the Philippines.

    With love, solidarity, and prayers,
    Rowan Evans

  • Author’s Note

    Every rebellion begins as a prayer whispered into darkness.

    Mary Cast a Little Hex is the solitary hymn — a woman standing before her altar of ruin, choosing power over apology. She is the patron saint of the unrepentant, the quiet spark that lights the rebellion.

    Ring Around the Rose Bush is her echo, multiplied — the chorus of daughters who rose from her ashes, the feral bloom of a world reborn through wrath and grace. It is a hymn for every heretic heart that refuses to kneel.

    Together, these poems are a Witch’s Gospel: a scripture of survival and sanctified rage.

    To burn and still bloom — that is the miracle.
    To be called “too much” and still rise — that is the magic.

    May every word be a spell,
    and every reader, a flame.

    Rowan Evans


    A gothic garden at midnight with black roses and candles, a lone female figure standing near a stone altar, mist and embers swirling around.
    From ashes bloom dark petals — the witch’s gospel in motion.

    Mary Cast a Little Hex
    Poetry by Rowan Evans
    (Written June 28th, 2025)

    Mary cast a little hex,
    The altar cold as stone—
    A whisper stitched from thorn and wax,
    A prayer she made alone.

    She didn’t weep. She didn’t kneel.
    She bit the moon instead—
    And carved her name in shadows deep,
    Where angels fear to tread.

    They called her “witch” with tongues of ash,
    Their blessings laced with blame.
    But Mary burned like prophecy—
    Too holy for their shame.

    Her heart was made of comet dust,
    Her breath a velvet flame.
    She kissed the wind and it obeyed,
    Then vanished with no name.

    And now the stars recall her sigh,
    The dark hums with her spell.
    Each midnight bloom, each broken clock
    Still rings the chapel bell.

    She walks in dreams of restless girls
    Who ache, but do not bend—
    Their lashes lit with embers red,
    Their laughter sharp at end.

    Now every hex, each whispered spell,
    Still bears her rebel mark—
    A kiss of ink, a flame of hope,
    A torch lit in the dark.


    Ring Around the Rose Bush
    Poetry by Rowan Evans
    (Written June 29th, 2025)

    Ring around the rose bush,
    A pocket full of thorns—
    Ashes to ashes,
    Patriarchy drags us into scorn.

    Whispers crawl beneath cracked lips,
    Where shadows breed and plots conspire,
    They wear their crowns of rotten bone,
    And feed us poison from the pyre.

    We dance in ruins, blackened bells,
    Singing songs they tried to smother,
    Our bones break glass beneath their heels,
    Our fury is a mother.

    Ring around the rose bush,
    We spin through smoke and flame—
    Ashes choke the blackening sky,
    But from these ashes, we carve our name.

    They bury us beneath cold earth,
    Try to silence every scream,
    But roots of rage twist deep and dark,
    Bursting forth like a fevered dream.

    We are the thorn inside the rose,
    The wound that will not heal,
    A reckoning dressed in midnight,
    The truth they cannot steal.

    Ring around the rose bush,
    A pocket full of spite—
    Ashes to ashes,
    We rise again to fight.

    So let the gardens rot and fall,
    Let the halls grow cold and bare,
    From the cracks, new roses bloom—
    Dark petals soaked in dare.


    Step deeper into the shadows and discover the full breadth of my poetry in The Library of Ashes — an archive of ink-stained devotion, dark petals, and threshold poems that linger long after the last candle flickers. Visit The Library of Ashes →

  • Author’s Note

    Sometimes love is tender.
    Sometimes it’s ridiculous.
    Sometimes it’s equal parts devotion, lust…
    and, well… Pokémon references.

    This one’s for the bold, the playful, and anyone who knows that love can be legendary.
    Read it aloud.

    Laugh. Blush. Feel.


    A vibrant illustration of two lovers framed by glowing Pokémon shapes in a dreamy, neon atmosphere, symbolizing playful devotion.
    Sometimes love is ridiculous. Sometimes, it’s legendary.

    PokéDevotion
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    My devotion is true,
    just like my love for you—
    I won’t whisper it quietly,
    I’ll scream it out, Loudred.

    Everything that comes to me,
    I’ll give to you—
    that’s the Plusle of being Minun.
    We’ll dance to our own Volbeat,
    carefree, spinning in our rhythm.

    I’ll shift with your emotional weather—
    your personal Castform.
    I won’t ask you to change or transform,
    just be.

    If you’re ever stressed or tense,
    spread them wide—
    I’ll rest my head between ’em,
    and give you a Lickilicky.

    If you say you’re not ready,
    I won’t ask, Wynaut?
    We can go slow,
    we can Spheal it out together.

    But I must ask,
    Relicanth—you see
    what you mean to me?
    You’re my Latias,
    so I’ll never say Latios to you.

    You’ve been with idiots and assholes,
    but you see clearly—
    you know I’m Rhyperior.
    I’ll wrap you in devotion, Swadloon;
    if they think there’s room to come between—
    they’re wrong. I won’t Leavanny.

    I promise—
    I won’t let harm touch your life.
    I’ll protect you until my last breath;
    I’ll keep the Shieldon.

    And if you choose me,
    I’ll be your starter, your best friend.
    The Pikachu to your Ash,
    you and I until the very end.


    I am sorry for this poem and the one linked below…

    [Vaporeon Drip, Flareon Bliss]
    A wild, playful, and shockingly romantic Pokémon-inspired poem exploring devotion, desire, and every Eevee evolution.

  • Author’s Note

    “Some people flinch when they see fangs. I lean in.”

    This poem is for those who defend themselves fiercely —
    and for the ones who find beauty in that strength.


    Illustration of a cobra rising from black roses, symbolizing beauty, danger, and defiance.
    “Some people flinch when they see fangs. I lean in.” — Rowan Evans

    Beautiful Little Cobra
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    You started spitting venom again,
    and I leaned in—
    and you said
    it was the same as before,
    so I confessed,
    it made me want you more.
    And you teased,
    my preferences are weird.
    But I know,
    baby, I know…
    I can’t help it,
    when it comes to matters of the heart.

    Yeah, you started spitting venom,
    and I knew it wasn’t directed at me,
    so I leaned in again.
    I tried to feel it,
    let the venom kiss my skin.
    It felt like a little win,
    or maybe I just love the way you sin.
    It was the way you said you hate him,
    and the death you wished upon—
    Like a beautiful little cobra.

    It makes me want you more
    the way your fury glows.
    So I moved closer,
    just to feel the heat…
    your flames.
    You said it like a warning—
    but it doesn’t scare me—
    the way it keeps me warm.

    I love the way you
    refuse to shrink—
    when you stand a little taller.
    Tell me, where’d you get it from—
    this fire?
    I’ll be honest though,
    it doesn’t really matter to me.
    I’ve always been attracted to danger.

    ☣️🔥🐍🔥☣️

    I just love how you spit that venom.
    You beautiful little cobra.
    The way you’re so willing,
    always willing to defend yourself.
    Too smart to fall for the bullshit,
    and I love that about you.
    It tells me, you’ll put me in my place,
    if it were needed.

    But I promise, with me—
    it’ll never be needed.
    Because I love you, truly—
    like a beautiful little cobra.


    Unsent Letters to My Muse

    Where the Ocean Dreams & Where the Dream Took Us
    “Two dreams, two nights, one heart. Where the Ocean Dreams explores tender longing and emotional trust, while Where the Dream Took Us dives into desire, intimacy, and devotion. A double-feature of dream-inspired poetry by Rowan Evans.”

    Perfectly Imperfect: A Poem About Loving Someone as They Are
    Perfection isn’t the absence of flaws — it’s recognizing the beauty that thrives alongside them. This poem celebrates those who have been told they’re ‘too much’ or ‘not enough,’ reminding them they are loved exactly as they are.

    The Prayer of Two Tongues | Bilingual Love Poem in English & Tagalog
    A bilingual love poem written in both English and Tagalog, “The Prayer of Two Tongues” explores intimacy, distance, and devotion across language and longing. Inspired by my muse, this piece weaves prayer and poetry into a bridge between hearts.