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Poetry by Rowan Evans

Tag: emotional poetry

  • Standing Between Us | Identity & Love Poem

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    This piece lives in a space between two interpretations, and I wrote it that way on purpose.

    It can be read as a reflection on identity–on the versions of ourselves we carry, the ones we’ve been, and ones we hesitate to become. A room filled with selves, each one shaped by different choices, different fears, different moments of almost.

    But it can also be read as something more relational. The figure in the piece–“her”–can exist as a person. Someone who feels steady, certain, present in a way the speaker isn’t yet. Someone who becomes a point of gravity.

    What matters to me is that the distance between them comes from the same place in both readings.

    Not circumstance.

    Not timing.

    But hesitation.

    In that way, the poem sits in the overlap between becoming and connection–where reaching someone else and becoming yourself start to feel like the same act.

    — Rowan Evans

    Multiple versions of a person standing in a dim surreal room with a distant glowing figure symbolizing identity and connection
    A room full of who I was, who I am, and who I haven’t learned to be yet.

    Standing Between Us
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I walk into a room
    that knows my name too well.

    It is filled with me—
    not reflections,
    not mirrors—
    but selves.

    They stand where I once stood,
    breathe how I used to breathe,
    hold their hands like I remember doing
    before I knew why.

    Some look at me.
    Most don’t.

    They are not ghosts—
    not quite.
    I cannot see through them.
    They have weight.
    Presence.
    Like memories
    that never learned how to fade.

    I move through them anyway.

    Shoulder brushing shoulder—
    past brushing present—
    future turning its head
    just a second too late.

    And then—

    her.

    Not fully seen.
    Never fully seen.

    A glimpse
    between the space
    of two mistakes,
    I used to make.

    A flicker
    caught in the outline
    of who I used to be
    and who I might become.

    I follow.

    Or maybe I orbit.

    Because every time I get close,
    another version of me steps in the way—
    hesitation given form,
    fear with a body,
    longing wearing my face.

    I want to call out—
    but which voice is mine?

    They all sound like me.

    So I keep moving.

    Through regret.
    Through almosts.
    Through the selves that loved—
    too early,
    too late…

    too quietly.

    And still—
    I see her.

    Soft.
    Certain.
    Waiting in the space
    I haven’t learned to stand in yet.

    I think—

    no.

    I know.

    She is not lost in this room.

    I am.

    And every version of me
    that I refuse to become
    is standing between us.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • Same Sky – A Poem About Distance, Longing, and Connection

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    Same Sky sits in the space between distance and closeness.

    It’s about the kind of connection that feels real, even when it isn’t physically present. The kind that inspires growth, while also bringing fear to the surface.

    There’s a vulnerability in wanting someone–not just near you, but in your world. In admitting that their presence matters, even without defining what that presence is.

    At its core, this piece isn’t about certainty.

    It’s about longing.

    The quiet, persistent kind–
    that simply wants someone here.

    — Rowan Evans

    Two people far apart looking up at the same star-filled sky, symbolizing longing and connection
    Different places. Same sky.

    Same Sky
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Don’t take it personally,
    when I retreat—
    disappear inside of me.
    I’m reflecting—
    is this something
    I need protecting from?

    These feelings
    that I’m feeling,
    they scare me.

    It’s terrifying,
    sometimes—
    the way you
    make me feel.

    The way I want to change myself,
    not because you asked me to—
    because you inspire me,
    to be better than I was
    the day before.

    So I look to the heavens
    with feet planted,
    connected to the surface
    of the planet.
    Feet, the roots,
    grounding me.

    Even if I don’t feel
    rooted to the ground
    beneath.

    Eyes on the stars,
    mapping scars
    traced from afar.

    Ocean’s edge,
    is the reminder
    of the—

    Through the waves,
    I’d swim.

    I’d leave behind
    my life and everything
    I’ve ever known.

    It’s an internal insistence,
    to close the distance.
    A longing to stand under
    the same stars,
    in the same sky
    on the same night.

    To be able to look over,
    to know you’re near.
    Friend or more,
    I don’t care.

    I just…

    I want you there.

    Journey into the Hexverse

    [To Whom It May Concern…] (3/20)

    A raw exploration of vulnerability, fear, and self-sabotage—this poem captures the struggle between wanting to be seen and the instinct to hide.

    [Weathered] (3/21)

    A deeply introspective poem about confronting fear, breaking patterns, and choosing to stand in the storm instead of running from it.

    [Same Room (Emotionally)] (3/22)

    Can you miss someone you’ve never met? This poem explores emotional connection beyond physical distance and what it means to truly feel seen.

    [No Parachute] (3/23)

    A poetic reflection on falling in love without hesitation—raw, uncertain, and without a safety net.

    [When I Started to Fall for You] (3/24)

    A lyrical exploration of love’s intensity—how connection grows, transforms, and reshapes the way we experience the world.

    [Bad Habit] (3/25)

    A powerful reflection on repetitive thought patterns, emotional loops, and the moment of realizing you’re stuck inside your own mind.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • Bad Habit – A Poem About Mental Loops and Self-Awareness

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    The mind has a way of repeating itself.

    Patterns, thoughts, loops–they can feel inescapable, like walking through the same place over and over again, no matter how far you think you’ve gone.

    Bad Habit is about recognizing those patterns in real time. Not after the fact, not with clarity or distance–but while you’re still standing inside them.

    It’s the moment of awareness.

    And the quiet decision to not disappear into it.

    — Rowan Evans

    A person walking through a repeating or mirrored space, symbolizing mental loops and overthinking
    Some patterns don’t break—they repeat.

    Bad Habit
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I feel like I’m running in place,
    my feet move but I go nowhere.
    Terrain’s all the same,
    it never changes.

    All the trees
    in the same place.
    All the people
    with the same face.

    Dreams, perhaps—
    or maybe a nightmare?
    My mind,
    it doesn’t fight fair.

    So I’m stuck here.
    Wandering,
    lost in my mind—
    pondering,
    you know I have questions.

    I was just wondering—
    if I reached my hand out,
    would you grab it?
    Pull me back
    from this static?

    I know it’s not you
    that I’m talking to,
    but my brain
    paints you so vivid.
    So I let myself take time,
    I let myself live it.

    It’s all inside my mind,
    dreams, perhaps
    or maybe nightmare.

    Maybe it pulls me in,
    and wants to keep me there.
    Like a ghost of despair,
    trying to get me to—
    disappear.

    But I’m not going
    anywhere.
    Once I’ve climbed
    out of my mind,
    and back into the world.

    Back into myself,
    into clear mental health.
    No more fog,
    no more static.
    No more feeling
    like my life is tragic.

    Another bad habit.

    Journey into the Hexverse

    [To Whom It May Concern…] (3/20)

    A raw exploration of vulnerability, fear, and self-sabotage—this poem captures the struggle between wanting to be seen and the instinct to hide.

    [Weathered] (3/21)

    A deeply introspective poem about confronting fear, breaking patterns, and choosing to stand in the storm instead of running from it.

    [Same Room (Emotionally)] (3/22)

    Can you miss someone you’ve never met? This poem explores emotional connection beyond physical distance and what it means to truly feel seen.

    [No Parachute] (3/23)

    A poetic reflection on falling in love without hesitation—raw, uncertain, and without a safety net.

    [When I Started to Fall for You] (3/24)

    A lyrical exploration of love’s intensity—how connection grows, transforms, and reshapes the way we experience the world.

    [Same Sky] (3/26)

    A poetic meditation on longing, distance, and the quiet desire to share the same space—even when worlds apart.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • When I Started to Fall for You – A Poem About Deep Love

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    This piece is about the kind of love that reshapes your internal world.

    Not suddenly, all at once–but gradually, in the quiet moments. In the way someone becomes part of your thoughts without effort. In the way their presence lingers, even in their absence.

    It explores the beauty and intensity of that feeling–how it can comfort, overwhelm, and transform all at the same time.

    To fall for someone is to risk change.
    To embrace it is to accept that you won’t be the same after.

    — Rowan Evans

    A person watching a sunrise, representing love, warmth, and emotional connection
    Love doesn’t arrive all at once—it unfolds.

    When I Started to Fall for You
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    When I started to fall for you,
    the world shifted and swayed.
    You became the dawn’s first whisper,
    the sun’s embrace at play.
    From the moment I awaken,
    your name graces my lips.
    in the quiet of the morning,
    where dreams and daylight eclipse.

    You became my sole obsession,
    my every thought unfurled.
    The last flicker of my mind,
    as night wraps up the world.
    Each heartbeat echoes your laughter,
    a melody so sweet,
    a symphony of silence
    that pulls me from my seat.

    In the shadows of my longing,
    your essence fills the air,
    I’ll learn your hidden stories—
    every secret that you bear.
    With every shared confession,
    I’ve mapped the stars in your eyes.
    Crafting constellations of love,
    beneath the velvet skies.

    To see your smile is magic,
    a light that ignites my soul—
    a balm for all my scars,
    it makes my weary heart whole.
    Your voice is the thunder,
    soothing storms that rage within.
    A gentle force of nature,
    calming the chaos
    with your skin.

    Your presence is a sanctuary,
    a refuge from my fears.
    In your arms,
    I’ve found my shelter—
    a harbor for my tears.
    When shadows stretched and whispered,
    and weariness took its toll.
    You were the hearth of comfort,
    where I could rest my soul.

    When I started to fall for you—
    I let the world fade away
    with every fleeting moment,
    I’ve cherished what you say.
    For in the depths of falling—
    I find a truth so rare…

    my heart will always wander,
    but with you—it finds its lair.

    Journey into the Hexverse

    [To Whom It May Concern…] (3/20)

    A raw exploration of vulnerability, fear, and self-sabotage—this poem captures the struggle between wanting to be seen and the instinct to hide.

    [Weathered] (3/21)

    A deeply introspective poem about confronting fear, breaking patterns, and choosing to stand in the storm instead of running from it.

    [Same Room (Emotionally)] (3/22)

    Can you miss someone you’ve never met? This poem explores emotional connection beyond physical distance and what it means to truly feel seen.

    [No Parachute] (3/23)

    A poetic reflection on falling in love without hesitation—raw, uncertain, and without a safety net.

    [Bad Habit] (3/25)

    A powerful reflection on repetitive thought patterns, emotional loops, and the moment of realizing you’re stuck inside your own mind.

    [Same Sky] (3/26)

    A poetic meditation on longing, distance, and the quiet desire to share the same space—even when worlds apart.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • No Parachute – A Poem About Falling in Love Without Fear

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    Sometimes the things we feel the most deeply are the hardest to say plainly.

    So we dress them up–in metaphor, in rhythm, in repetition. We circle the meaning instead of stating it directly, hoping it will be understood without needing to be exposed.

    This piece pulls back from that, just a little.

    At its core, it’s about falling–without certainty, without safety nets, without knowing how it will end. Just the quiet realization that the fall has already begun.

    And choosing not to stop it.

    — Rowan Evans

    A person falling through the sky without a parachute, symbolizing emotional risk and vulnerability
    Some falls are chosen.

    No Parachute
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Sometimes—
    I have so much
    I want to say.

    So I spell it out,
    in metaphor—
    and similes
    of different shades.

    I take plain,
    make it less obvious.
    I’ve said this
    a thousand times,
    in a thousand rhymes,
    across a thousand lines.

    A moth to flame,
    me and it—
    one and the same,
    but my flame
    is your name.

    1-4-3,
    that’s code
    I’ve used before.

    But I mean it…
    I really do.

    it’s true—
    I tripped,
    and fell for you.

    Free fall.
    No parachute.

    Journey into the Hexverse

    [To Whom It May Concern…] (3/20)
    A raw exploration of vulnerability, fear, and self-sabotage—this poem captures the struggle between wanting to be seen and the instinct to hide.

    [Weathered] (3/21)
    A deeply introspective poem about confronting fear, breaking patterns, and choosing to stand in the storm instead of running from it.

    [Same Room (Emotionally)] (3/22)
    Can you miss someone you’ve never met? This poem explores emotional connection beyond physical distance and what it means to truly feel seen.

    [When I Started to Fall for You] (3/24)
    A lyrical exploration of love’s intensity—how connection grows, transforms, and reshapes the way we experience the world.

    [Bad Habit] (3/25)
    A powerful reflection on repetitive thought patterns, emotional loops, and the moment of realizing you’re stuck inside your own mind.

    [Same Sky] (3/26)
    A poetic meditation on longing, distance, and the quiet desire to share the same space—even when worlds apart.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • Same Room (Emotionally) – A Poem About Long-Distance Connection

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    Connection doesn’t always require proximity.

    There’s a kind of closeness that exists beyond physical space–built through time, attention, and presence. It’s not something you can always point to, or prove, but it’s felt just the same.

    This piece is a response to a question that gets asked often: how can you miss someone you’ve never met?

    The answer is simple.

    Because connection isn’t measured in distance.
    It’s measured in impact.

    — Rowan Evans

    Two people in separate spaces connected emotionally despite physical distance
    Distance doesn’t define connection.

    Same Room (Emotionally)
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I’ve been asked—
    time and time again—
    how can you miss
    somebody
    you’ve never met?

    Just because
    her and I,
    have never been
    in the same room—
    physically.

    At the same time.

    Doesn’t mean
    we’ve never been
    in the same room—
    emotionally.

    And that’s
    what you don’t see.

    You don’t see—
    the patience,
    the presence,
    and the way she
    makes me
    feel…

    I am better than
    I have ever been.

    Journey into the Hexverse

    [To Whom It May Concern…] (3/20)
    A raw exploration of vulnerability, fear, and self-sabotage—this poem captures the struggle between wanting to be seen and the instinct to hide.

    [Weathered] (3/21)
    A deeply introspective poem about confronting fear, breaking patterns, and choosing to stand in the storm instead of running from it.

    [No Parachute] (3/23)
    A poetic reflection on falling in love without hesitation—raw, uncertain, and without a safety net.

    [When I Started to Fall for You] (3/24)
    A lyrical exploration of love’s intensity—how connection grows, transforms, and reshapes the way we experience the world.

    [Bad Habit] (3/25)
    A powerful reflection on repetitive thought patterns, emotional loops, and the moment of realizing you’re stuck inside your own mind.

    [Same Sky] (3/26)
    A poetic meditation on longing, distance, and the quiet desire to share the same space—even when worlds apart.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • Weathered – A Poem About Growth, Fear, and Facing Yourself

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    Weathered lives in the spaces between awareness and change.

    It’s easy to recognize patterns in ourselves–the ways we retreat, the ways we protect, the ways we leave before we can be left. It’s harder to sit with them. Harder still to change them.

    This piece isn’t about having the answers. It’s about standing in the storm anyway. Letting it hit, letting it string things back, and choosing not to run from it.

    Growth doesn’t always feel like progress.
    Sometimes it just feels like staying.

    — Rowan Evans

    A person standing in the rain facing a storm, symbolizing emotional endurance and personal growth
    Sometimes growth looks like standing still in the storm.

    Weathered
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I sit alone,
    asking questions—
    why am I like this?
    Why do I retreat
    inside my mind,
    when it’s you
    I’m trying to find?

    I mean—
    I know it’s because
    you mean too much
    to me.

    So I panic.

    I move inward,
    closing shutters
    to the world.

    I don’t want you
    to see me—
    not like this,
    not when you
    can perceive me.

    Because to be perceived
    for me,
    is to be left behind.
    It’s happened
    more than one time.

    So I leave first.
    I leave before it hurts.

    Again I ask—
    why am I like this?
    Why can’t I fight this?

    I just want to shake it,
    stop feeling like a mistake,
    be better.
    But better doesn’t seem
    to be in the cards for me…

    So I’ve got to learn.
    I’ve got to change
    some things—

    I need to pull myself
    back together,
    because this—

    this is a storm.
    A storm I want to stand in,
    feel the wind batter me,
    let the rain strip me bare,
    and still—
    I will weather it.

    Journey into the Hexverse

    [To Whom It May Concern…] (3/20)
    A raw exploration of vulnerability, fear, and self-sabotage—this poem captures the struggle between wanting to be seen and the instinct to hide.

    [Same Room (Emotionally)] (3/22)
    Can you miss someone you’ve never met? This poem explores emotional connection beyond physical distance and what it means to truly feel seen.

    [No Parachute] (3/23)
    A poetic reflection on falling in love without hesitation—raw, uncertain, and without a safety net.

    [When I Started to Fall for You] (3/24)
    A lyrical exploration of love’s intensity—how connection grows, transforms, and reshapes the way we experience the world.

    [Bad Habit] (3/25)
    A powerful reflection on repetitive thought patterns, emotional loops, and the moment of realizing you’re stuck inside your own mind.

    [Same Sky] (3/26)
    A poetic meditation on longing, distance, and the quiet desire to share the same space—even when worlds apart.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • To Whom It May Concern – A Poem About Vulnerability and Self-Sabotage

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    Some feelings don’t arrive gently.

    They sit on the tip of your tongue, heavy and persistent, asking to be spoken–but never quite feeling safe enough to say out loud. So they get rewritten, softened, disguised. Butterflies, instead of something darker. Something truer.

    This piece is about that tension–the instinct to hide, even when you want to be seen. The way vulnerability can feel less like openness and more like risk.

    Sometimes we disappear not because we don’t care…
    but because we care too much.

    And still–there’s a part of us that keeps trying to come back.

    — Rowan Evans

    A person sitting alone at a desk in dim light, surrounded by crumpled papers, representing hidden emotions and vulnerability
    Some truths are easier to write than to say out loud.

    To Whom It May Concern…
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I’m writing this letter to spell out
    what I’ve been holding inside.
    I’m tired of hiding,
    behind wide eyes and
    white lies.
    Sick of saying butterflies…

    They are moths.

    They flit and flutter,
    light rumble
    in the stomach.

    Like the lanterns lit.

    I’ll admit,
    it makes me sick—
    the way this hits.
    The way it sits,
    on the tip of my tongue—
    your name.

    It’s become a scared thing.

    And I care too much,
    so instincts kicked in—
    I disappeared again.
    Silently went within.

    I try and claw my way out.

    Sometimes I—
    don’t know why,
    I do the things I do.

    Self-sabotage sometimes.

    Clinging to anything
    to hide behind.
    To mask emotion,
    to keep me safe.
    Because—
    vulnerability,
    has not always been.

    But I will
    claw my way
    back again. nm

    Journey into the Hexverse

    [Weathered] (3/21)
    A deeply introspective poem about confronting fear, breaking patterns, and choosing to stand in the storm instead of running from it.

    [Same Room (Emotionally)] (3/22)
    Can you miss someone you’ve never met? This poem explores emotional connection beyond physical distance and what it means to truly feel seen.

    [No Parachute] (3/23)
    A poetic reflection on falling in love without hesitation—raw, uncertain, and without a safety net.

    [When I Started to Fall for You] (3/24)
    A lyrical exploration of love’s intensity—how connection grows, transforms, and reshapes the way we experience the world.

    [Bad Habit] (3/25)
    A powerful reflection on repetitive thought patterns, emotional loops, and the moment of realizing you’re stuck inside your own mind.

    [Same Sky] (3/26)
    A poetic meditation on longing, distance, and the quiet desire to share the same space—even when worlds apart.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]

  • Not Begging, Just Tired – A Raw Poem About Faith, Identity, and Emotional Exhaustion

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    Not Begging, Just Tired lives in that quiet space between breaking and continuing.

    This piece isn’t about giving up–it’s about what comes after the questions, when certainty fades and all that’s left  is awareness. It explores the tension between faith and doubt, between the voice that offers an easy escape and the part of us that still chooses to struggle, to grow, to stay human.

    There’s a kind of exhaustion that doesn’t come from weakness, but from enduring–feeling everything, questioning everything, and still moving forward without clear answers. This poem sits in that space.

    It’s not a resolution.
    It’s not a victory.

    It’s a choice.

    To stay.

    — Rowan Evans

    A person kneeling in a dim room with soft light behind them, symbolizing emotional exhaustion and quiet resilience.
    Not begging—just tired, and still choosing to stay.

    Not Begging, Just Tired
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I’m on my knees again,
    begging—please again.
    My brain freezes,
    and I get lost within.

    Confronting sins.

    Am I who I want to be?
    I mean it—truthfully.
    Am I exactly who I want to be,
    or just who I became?

    And the devil whispers…

    He speaks to me,
    I hear him clearly.
    He says he’ll set me free—
    no need to beg or plead.

    But I don’t want ease.
    It’s the challenge I need.

    What comes easily
    is never worth the cost.
    What’s a dream
    if it means
    you lose your humanity?

    God… if you’re listening—
    can you hear me whispering?

    I’m not begging,
    I won’t plead,
    but I’m getting tired
    of having to bleed.

    I’ll be honest—
    I’m not sure if you’re real,
    but I think I used to feel you
    when things got too heavy,
    when life felt a little too rough.

    Back before
    life kind of fucked me up.

    There’s always
    a before and an after.
    Before—there was laughter.

    But that was last chapter.
    This one’s been
    a little too heavy.

    To leave?
    I’ve been a little too ready.

    I don’t mean
    leave permanently—
    I just want to be
    in a different scene.

    Somewhere I don’t feel
    at home through a screen.

    Have you felt
    out of place
    in a place
    that was supposed
    to be your home?

    And still—
    you felt alone…

    Not in a way
    that filled you with despair,
    but in a way
    that made you more aware.

    I’m not begging—
    just tired…
    and still choosing
    to stay.

    [Calculating Profits]
    Calculating Profits (Ledger of Lives) is a raw anti-war poem confronting how modern conflict is often reduced to statistics, strategy, and spectacle. Through stark imagery and direct language, Rowan Evans challenges the “us vs. them” narrative and reminds readers that behind every number in war’s ledger is a human life.

  • Walking Memory Lane Before My Birthday | A Poem About Healing, Loss, and Becoming

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    With my birthday approaching, I found myself walking down memory lane—whether I wanted to or not. Birthdays have a way of doing that. They pull you backward through moments you thought were buried, faces you once trusted, versions of yourself you barely recognize anymore.

    This piece came from that forced reflection: tracing where I started, who I opened my heart to, what broke me, and how I learned to survive by drifting instead of healing. It’s about the memories that arrive uninvited, the lessons learned too late, and the quiet realization that growth isn’t always graceful.

    I’m not writing this from a place of resolution—just awareness. This is me taking inventory of the pieces that built me, the scars that shaped me, and the distance between who I was and who I’m becoming.

    Sometimes looking back isn’t about regret. Sometimes it’s about understanding how you’re still standing.

    Misty cobblestone street at night with glowing street lamps, symbolizing reflection, memory, and emotional healing.
    Walking memory lane—where every light holds a name, and every shadow remembers.

    Memory Lane Has No Exit
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I’ve been trapped inside my mind
    for a while now.
    I was wandering along
    memory lane,
    going over
    everything.

    Street lamps line
    cobblestone streets,
    each one named
    after a time
    or place.

    I feel the mist
    of missed
    opportunities,
    brush across
    my face.
    Reminding me
    of things
    I wish
    I would have said.

    I feel the electro—
    static shock,
    as it climbs
    up my spine.
    Until it touches
    the base of my mind,
    and every memory
    floods back.

    Every loss, every victory faced—
    every blame misplaced,
    baseless claim, just to tear me down.
    Every time I opened up,
    and they vanished—
    Poof! No ghost,
    left me unhaunted.
    Then they taunted,
    what the fuck—

    I told her things
    I never shared,
    she said she cared,
    that she was there.
    Twisted words,
    like a knife in my back—
    used every secret shared
    against me,
    every word, a weapon it became.

    I guess that’s why I faded…
    Drifted… never looking for attachment.
    I put my head in the clouds,
    took to the sky. I’m Peter Pan,
    I never landed.

    Well, I guess I never healed.
    Not truly. Guess I just became,
    a little unruly. Hard headed,
    too stubborn to see.
    I wasn’t healing, not really.

    And just as I pull back,
    from that—
    another memory attacks.
    Flies in
    from out of nowhere,
    hits me in the face
    and suddenly,
    I’m back in that place.

    Nineteen.
    I thought she was a queen,
    with her eyes of green.
    Serene, until I saw the rot underneath.
    Twenty-one.
    I fell for her, or so I thought
    and she said she felt the same.
    And then she called me
    by his name.

    At twenty-four,
    there was more.
    A girl that I adored—
    thought we were
    moving toward
    something.
    We talked a lot,
    so I opened up.
    I thought I was safe,
    but she pulled back,
    and disappeared.

    Two weeks.
    I didn’t hear a peep.
    Then the messages started,
    secrets shared in confidence.
    She told them all,
    and felt no guilt.

    It was from—
    these pieces,
    I was built.

    If you’re interested in more poetry, you can find it here → [The Library of Ashes]