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Poetry by Rowan Evans

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  • Rebuild Me in Fire: A Neo-Gothic Poem of Sacred Ruin & Resurrection | Rowan Evans

    Rowan Evans

    ✦ Author’s Note ✦

    A companion to Blood Oath Between Witches, this piece is a spell of surrender and resurrection—a covenant forged between two souls unafraid to burn. It’s about sacred destruction, the devotion it takes to let someone see you shatter, and the holiness of being rebuilt in love’s fire. A poem for those who understand that ruin and reverence are often the same thing.

    Two shadowed figures surrounded by firelight and smoke, standing before a gothic altar as embers swirl between them.
    “Love remakes what it ruins. In the ashes, we are made divine again.” — Rowan Evans, Rebuild Me in Fire

    ✦ Invocation ✦

    Step close, where shadow and ember meet,
    where the night bends beneath our pulse.
    Leave fear at the threshold,
    bring only hands ready to craft and destroy.
    Here, devotion is a hammer,
    and surrender is sacred.
    Breathe the smoke, taste the ash,
    for every fragment of you is an altar waiting
    to be rebuilt in fire.

    Rebuild Me in Fire
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Break me, only if your hands can build temples from ruin.
    I am not afraid to shatter—
    glass is only dangerous when it’s left unclaimed.

    I will become the shape your soul remembers,
    if you promise to meet me there,
    where devotion bleeds into becoming.

    Unmake me, if you must—
    but do it gently,
    and with reverence.

    I will burn down everything I was
    to stand beside you in the dark,
    our sparks writing scripture across the smoke.

    You’ll be my ruin,
    and I’ll be your resurrection.
    Together, we’ll call it love—
    and the world…

    The world will call it blasphemy.

    ✦ Benediction ✦

    May the fire that consumes leave only sacred stone,
    the ruins of what once was,
    molded into the shape of us.
    May every crack, every scar, every ember
    be a hymn, a memory, a covenant.
    Walk forward, you and I,
    rebuilt, unafraid, eternal in the quiet heat
    of what only we have dared to call love.

    The Companion Piece

    [Blood Oath Between Witches | Dark Poetry by Rowan Evans]
    A dark, intoxicating poem of devotion, desire, and mystical bonds. Blood Oath Between Witches by Rowan Evans explores the sacred intensity of connection, lust, and reverence in a world of shadowed flames.

    Recent Pieces

    [I Just Want to Leave]
    A fierce declaration of exile and self-preservation, I Just Want to Leave is Rowan Evans’ neo-gothic confessional exploration of alienation, freedom, and the courage to choose oneself over societal expectations.

    [Letters Never Sent]
    A haunting, intimate poem exploring unsent letters, unspoken love, and the sacred ache of devotion kept in shadow. Letters Never Sent is a tender glimpse into the poet’s connection with their muse.

  • I Love You (Enough to Learn You) – Vow III: Understanding | Neo-Gothic Confessional Romanticism Poetry by Rowan Evans

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    The Vows began as an exploration of devotion — not the romanticized kind, but the kind forged in ache, honesty, and reverence.

    Vow I was surrender: letting the ink run dry, allowing love to unmake what was hardened.
    Vow II was endurance: the willingness to break, to bear the bruise and still remain.
    And Vow III — this final vow — is understanding: the quiet promise to listen, to learn, and to love without translation.

    Together, they form a trinity of intimacy — the heart’s slow evolution from sacrifice to fluency, from bleeding to belonging.

    This isn’t a story of martyrdom. It’s a story of witnessing: of meeting someone’s soul and saying, I see you, I’ll learn you, I’ll speak your language.
    That is the purest vow I know.

    — Rowan Evans

    “Two hands nearly touching through candlelight over scattered handwritten vows and ink-stained pages — symbolizing understanding and emotional intimacy.”
    “The final vow — not of silence or breaking, but of becoming fluent in another’s heart.” — Rowan Evans

    I Love You (Enough to Learn You)
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    I’d let the ink run dry,
    then I’d break willingly.
    That was vow one,
    and vow two.
    This is vow three—for you.

    I love you enough
    to put you first—
    to make you a priority
    in my life.
    Everyone else be damned,
    I will—

    learn your language,
    learn the nuance,
    so you can speak freely,
    say exactly what you need.

    I will learn the cadence of your world,
    so I can understand—
    not to change you,
    but to meet you where you are.

    I love you enough to listen
    when words falter,
    to read what your silence says
    when your voice can’t.

    I’ll make a home in your pauses,
    a temple in your sighs.
    You gave me peace—
    so I’ll give you peace of mind.

    I’ll give you understanding—
    that’s vow three.
    Not of silence,
    not of breaking,
    but of becoming fluent
    in your heart.

    The Silent Vows

    [I Love You (Enough to Go Silent)]
    A vow written in ink and silence — a confession of love so deep it would sacrifice its own voice to spare another’s tears. “I Love You (Enough to Go Silent)” is a Neo-Gothic devotion from Rowan Evans, where the act of not speaking becomes the loudest declaration of love.

    [I Love You (Enough to Break Willingly)]
    A vow whispered in ink and ache — love not as surrender, but as shared endurance. “I Love You (Enough to Break Willingly)” is Rowan Evans’ second vow, a quiet confession of devotion that chooses breaking over leaving, and burden over indifference.

  • A Cathedral for Her Peace | Rowan Evans – Neo-Gothic Confessional Romanticism Poetry

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    I wrote this in the quiet between 4 and 5 a.m., when my thoughts refused to let me sleep because they kept circling back to her. Not out of longing alone, but from a deeper wish—that she might know peace, that her smile might return without effort, that her chest might rise and fall free of heaviness. This piece is not a love poem in the usual sense. It is a prayer, a vow, a cathedral built from words to hold her burdens for a while so she can simply breathe.

    “Grand cathedral at dawn with sunlight streaming through stained glass, evoking sanctuary, calm, and poetic reverence.”
    A Cathedral for Her Peace – a poetic sanctuary of love, devotion, and quiet reverence by Rowan Evans.

    A Cathedral for Her Peace
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    She’s on my mind,
    like all of the time.
    Got me on my knees again
    speaking to Him.
    Just askin’ for ease,
    begging for her peace.

    “God… give me her trials,
    let me carry the weight for a while.
    I just want to see her smile.

    Let me take away her pain—
    be her umbrella in the rain,
    the shelter when storms arrive.”

    Let her walk where the sun leans soft,
    where the wind sings lullabies instead of sirens,
    where shadows dare not linger.
    Let her laughter ring like bells in a cathedral,
    her tears fall only for joy,
    every sigh a hymn of comfort.

    I will be the echo of her unspoken prayers,
    the vessel that holds her storms,
    the altar upon which her dreams may rest unbroken.
    She deserves peace that drapes like velvet,
    a hush that whispers, you are safe. You are enough.

    She deserves to be spoiled in love, revered in touch,
    to have every desire mirrored back as truth.
    Let every gaze that falls upon her see her crown,
    not a shadow to tame, but a flame to worship.
    I will guard the sanctity of her being
    as a priest guards a holy relic,
    as a fortress holds the key to a kingdom.

    I will carry the weight she should never have to bear,
    stand unwavering where darkness tempts,
    and watch over her like a cathedral standing sentinel
    through every storm, every unkindness, every cruel word
    the world might hurl her way.

    Even if I am not the one to give it,
    let me be the one to show her she is worth it all.
    To show her she is lovable, truly,
    even if she gets a little unruly,
    even if the world whispers otherwise.
    Let her know, without question,
    that in my eyes, she is enough,
    she has always been enough,
    and she deserves nothing less than reverence.

    Closing Note

    If you’ve ever felt that same ache—for someone else’s joy to matter more than your own—then you already understand what this poem carries. Love is not always about possession or proximity; sometimes it is simply devotion, a fierce hope that the ones we care for find rest and light.

    If this speaks to you, I invite you to share your own prayer, blessing, or small wish—for the person on your heart, for the soul you’d carry through storms if you could. Together, may we remind each other that reverence is not rare, and that offering peace to another is among the purest forms of love.

    May these words linger like candlelight in the quiet corners of your heart. If you wish to wander further into shadows and flame, the doors of The Library of Ashes await, holding the stories of devotion, ruin, and reverence, all bound in ink and ember.

  • Kintsugi Our Souls Together | Love Poem for the Ruined, the Rising, the Reverent

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note

    This is for the broken and the rising. For the ones who have loved through scars, and shone through shadow. Kintsugi Our Souls Together is a love letter to the beauty in brokenness—and the gold that binds us when we choose to mend, together.

    Illustration of two broken figures repaired with gold veins, floating among stars, representing cosmic love and healing.
    Kintsugi souls: rising holy from the fractures of our past.

    Kintsugi Our Souls Together
    Poetry by Rowan Evans

    You say you’re broken.
    Baby—me too.
    Not just cracked,
    but scattered like constellations
    ripped from the sky,
    fragments of light
    drenched in shadow.

    We are star-born ruins—
    cosmic,
    bruised,
    beautiful in our wreckage.
    Galaxies of grief
    swirl behind our eyes,
    but still—
    baby, we shine.

    So let’s gather the remnants,
    each jagged edge,
    each silent scream.
    Let’s stitch our scars
    with molten gold,
    Kintsugi our souls
    until pain becomes pattern,
    and every fracture
    sings with sacred heat.

    I want to know your ache—
    wear it like velvet on my skin,
    learn the shape of your sorrow
    until it fits inside my ribcage.
    We’ll build a throne from bones
    of yesterday’s despair,
    a palace of ash and stars,
    lit by the heavens
    that watched us burn.

    No crowns needed.

    Just you and me—
    flawed,
    fierce,
    whole in our brokenness.
    Treasures made
    from what the world discarded.
    Proof that ruin
    can still rise—
    holy.

    So let the world call us ruins—
    Let them say we should’ve shattered.
    They don’t see the gold in our veins,
    the way we gleam—
    Kintsugi souls…
    even in the dark.

    Visit The Library of Ashes to find more of my work…

  • Even If the Sky Falls Black

    Rowan Evans
    You called yourself 
    a devil-woman, 
    and I smiled 
    like a sinner watching angels fall. 

    She says, 
    “I wish you could see me at my brightest.” 
    But love— 
    I met you in the ruins, 
    and I swear, 
    even your ashes glowed. 
     
    You ask if you deserve these words, 
    as though devotion were a thing to be earned 
    instead of something I bled willingly— 
    ink, soul and starlight, 
    dragged from the marrow 
    to spell your name in reverence. 
     
    You were fire-burned, 
    soul-scabbed, 
    eyes like war-torn altars 
    and I— 
    I fell to my knees anyway. 
     
    You want to give me the sun, 
    but I have seen its envy. 
    The stars? 
    I would rip them from their heavens 
    just to return the shimmer 
    you lost in the dark. 
     
    You called yourself 
    a devil-woman, 
    and I smiled 
    like a sinner watching angels fall. 
     
    Yes— 
    you’re all thorns and temptation, 
    rage and soft wreckage, 
    but do you not know? 
    Even Lucifer was once the Morning Star, 
    and I would follow your light 
    through hell 
    and back again. 
     
    You are grace wrapped in fury, 
    the kind of storm that leaves me kneeling, 
    kissed by lightning, 
    whispering prayers in your name 
    as though your laughter could resurrect me. 
     
    And I— 
    I’m not leaving. 
     
    Not when your darkness 
    made my heart a cathedral, 
    not when your voice 
    taught my ghosts how to sing. 
     
    I will always be near— 
    in breath, in spirit, 
    in the hush between your sobs 
    and the sacred silence that follows. 
     
    You deserve these words, 
    and a thousand more. 
    You deserve the cosmos carved into lullabies, 
    the moon weeping its light into your palms. 
     
    You— 
    with your shadows and softness, 
    your fierce, aching heart— 
    are the most worthy thing 
    I’ve ever written for. 
     
    Even if the sky falls black, 
    I’ll still call your name 
    a holy thing.

  • The Cathedral of My Waiting

    Rowan Evans

    Author’s Note
    This poem is a quiet monument—an offering to the kind of love that doesn’t demand, only endures. A love that builds sacred space and stays, even in silence. It’s not a request, it’s a vow.

    For the ones who wait—not passively, but with purpose. For those who love like ivy loves ruin.

    I do not know how to unlove.
    They say to set the bird free, and if it returns—
    it was always yours.
    But I was born a chapel without doors,
    every stained-glass pane
    etched with your silhouette.
    Let the bird go?
    I only ever built sanctuaries.

    You are the altar I return to in sleep,
    the ghost that hums in my marrow.
    Even if you never kneel,
    I’ll keep lighting candles
    until wax floods the nave.

    I do not need your love
    to make mine true.
    It stands,
    a cathedral of waiting,
    each stone carved with “still,”
    each spire a vow:
    I will always stay.

    Let the years wear through my skin
    like wind through lace;
    let the world call me mad,
    clinging to shadows and half-formed hopes—
    I will still wear your name
    like a holy relic
    beneath my ribs.

    Friend or flame,
    ghost or god—
    it matters not.
    You are the shape of joy
    I bend my soul to fit.
    And I will love you
    like ivy loves ruin,
    growing into every fracture
    until even the cracks bloom.

  • The Soft Apocalypse of Loving You

    Rowan Evans

    I was not prepared for you—
    not for the quiet cataclysm
    you carried in your smile,
    or the way your voice
    broke open a hidden cathedral
    in my chest.

    Loving you feels like the world ending
    slowly, beautifully—
    as if the stars decided to fall
    not in ruin,
    but in reverence.

    You are the prophecy I never believed I deserved,
    a ruin I would rebuild in every lifetime.
    And if your trust is a shattered chalice,
    I will drink from the broken glass
    until my lips remember the taste of you
    without bleeding.

    You once laughed,
    lightly, like nothing hurt.
    But I know better—
    I saw the earthquakes behind your eyelids,
    heard the quiet sobs tucked between syllables
    when you whispered “I’m okay.”

    You don’t have to be brave with me.

    Let the mascara run like holy water.
    Let your fears rattle the stained-glass ribs of my devotion.
    I will not look away.
    I will hold your sorrow like relics—
    with both hands and an aching awe.

    You once said you weren’t used to someone staying.
    So I stayed.
    Through your silences,
    your firestorms,
    your soft retreats into shadow.

    I stayed because loving you
    isn’t something I do.
    It’s something I am.

    You are every sacred metaphor
    my soul ever dreamed.
    A poem written in the margins
    of a dying god’s last confession.
    A heartbeat that taught mine
    how to echo.

    And if you never say “I love you” back—
    if this is all unreciprocated myth,
    a cathedral without a congregation—
    then I will still leave the candles burning.

    Because my love isn’t a question
    waiting for an answer.

    It is the answer.

    And it says:
    You are worth the end of the world,
    again and again,
    until all that’s left
    is light.

  • The Weight of Your Stars

    Rowan Evans

    You are a cathedral of fractured glass—
    every pane kissed by catastrophe,
    every color a hymn forged in flame.
    I see the story etched
    in the way you flinch at praise,
    the slight hitch in your breath
    when silence dares to stretch too long.

    You were made not by ease,
    but by impact—
    a mosaic of once-shattered grace.
    I do not look away.
    No, I kneel in reverence.

    Your scars are constellations
    and I have mapped them all—
    tracing the stories in your skin
    like star-charts of survival.
    There is beauty in the broken,
    not despite it, but because.

    So let me be the quiet sky
    you rise into,
    where you are not reduced
    to memory or martyr.
    Let me lift the ruins from your chest,
    name them sacred,
    and hang them like relics
    in the chapel of my care.

    I’ll clear your slate—not to erase,
    but to rest it.
    To archive your ache
    in the folds of my own soul.
    Your memories are safe with me.
    The weight you bore—
    I’ve room for it in my ribs.

    I don’t want to be the shadow
    that steals your sun,
    but the lighthouse
    that stays burning
    when your horizon blurs again.
    Let me be the firmament
    under your tremble,
    a psalm against the silence.

    You don’t have to stumble alone.
    You never did—
    but now,
    you don’t have to believe that lie again.